INVINCIBLE NINJA kid

miss ko pala sya

2009-11-28T19:46:00.003+08:00

Nasa labas ako ng classroom... naghihintay for my 1.30 SRA class. Biglang nag vibrate yung fone ko. A message from Mich. Nasa UNC daw sila... nanonood ng basketball game kung saan isa sa mga players ang taong nagpakulay ng buhay ko last summer. I think twice if I'll go or not. If I go, we'll see each other. Mahihiya lang ako.

Pero dahil gusto ko sang makita after 2 months almost na di ko sa nakita, pumunta ako. It was raining hard. Pero I don't mind. I went there. I saw my friends cheering. After few minutes, kasama na ko sa nag checheer. I had fun. Really. Lalo na yung pumasok na sya sa court to play... yun lang yung time na pwede ko syang tingnan, kase pag nasa bench sya, di ako nakakatingin.. baka kasi mahalata ako. hhaha

Na shock ako nung pumasok na sya sa court.. 16 ang number ng jersey nya. That's our day. I dont know what to feel. Kikiligin ba ko? O malulungkot kase wala naman na talaga kami. Pero ito yung sure, yung mga friends ko, kinikilig. :) :)

Hindi pa tapos yung game umalis na kami. May next subject pa kasi. Pero talo na sila nun. though nakahabol sila sa 2nd half nung game, still, not enough to make them win.

Well, after the event, na relaize ko, miss ko pala sya. . :) :)

update! 11.03.09

2009-11-03T21:17:00.003+08:00

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Bukas, pasukan nanaman. Pupunta ulit sa classroom kasama ng mga blockmates na ayaw ko ng makita. Ok lang, sa 4 subjects ko lang sila kasama. ung other subjects, sa ibang section na. Ok na 'to kesa sa maghapon ko silang makikita. Bakit nga ba ayoko sa kanila? Umm first, mga childish kase. Di na ku sanay sa ganung mga tao kase 3 years na ku sa college environment. Kung di aku nag shift, di sana graduating na ku sa 2011. Anyway, ok na rin 'to. Ggraduate at ggraduate pa rin naman aku.

Bagsak nga pala ku sa math. Retake na lang. Ngayon, seroyoso na.

Mag bbday ng pala c Papa sa nov. 5. Balak ko sana gumawa ng graham cake para iregalo sakanya. Kaso naman! panu ko ipapadala yun? Baka pag uwi ko na lang. Text na lang muna.

dito na lang muna. ;)

walang sasalo??

2009-10-07T21:02:00.003+08:00

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akala ko, mawawala na lang 'to pag nasabi ko na sayo. Akala ko makakahinga na ko ng maluwag pag naamin ko na. Noong una kala ko effective na. Na wala na kong nadarama sayo. Ngunit ngayon, di ko na alam. Kung sadyang nag aalala bilang kaibigan o selos ba ito sa tuwing napapa tawa ka nya ng walang ka effort-effort.

Marahil naguguluhan lamang ako pero parang kinukumbinsi ko lang sarili ko nito... gusto kita, nasabi ko na yan sao. "salamat sa pagiging honest" yun lang sagot mo. Sa sagot na yun, alam ko ng wala ng pag asa. Ngunit di ko maiwasang umasa na baka isang araw, marealize mo na gusto mo din pala ko. Na namimiss mo ko tulad ng pagka miss ko ngayon sayo kahit kakahiwalay lang natin kanina. Nakakaloka noh? Parang kelan lang, akala ko magiging ok na ko pagkatapos kong aminin sayo 'to. Pero ngayon, di na ko sigurado kung mawawala pa 'to.

Siguro kelangan ko lang ng rebound. Ng sasalo sakin ngayon. Ngayon na nahulog na ko sayo ng tuluyan. Pero baket ganun... may sasalo naman saken ahh. Pinakilala ko pa nga sayo. Kaso hindi sa ung gusto kong sumalo saken. Ikaw. Pero alam kong di mo gagawin yun. At nalulungkot akong isipin na hanggang dito na lamang ako sayo... isa sa mga kasama mo sa eskwela pero hindi nag iisa sa puso mo... isa sa mga nagpapatawa sayo, ngunit di isa sa mga magpapaiyak sayo pag nawala ako... isa sa mga nahihingahan mo ng probelam pero di kaylan man magiging pangtaggal ng kalungkutan mo... Siguro isa ako sa mga mahalagang tao sa buhay mo ngayon... pero hindi kaylan man magiging rason mo para matakot kang mawala sa mundo... at maiwan ako.

hindi kelan man.

Ma swerte siguro sya. Di na nya kelangan gayumahin ka... minahal mo na sya ng kusa at walang pag aalinlangan.

Pero tandaan mo 'to. Di lahat ng bagay sa mundo, forever. Mag bbreak din kayo! ;)

Jacque/Jackie Bermejo; Persona Non-Grata

2009-09-29T20:59:00.002+08:00

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jackie/jaque bermejo is an OFW from Dubai who made insensitive comments about what happened here in the Philippines during Typhoon Ondoy.

she wrote in her facebook account: "buti n lng am hir in dubai! maybe so many sinners back der! so yeah deserving what happened."

not contented, she added: "cuz of u dnt understand!!!judge me sige!!! kya ala kayong asenso.even nature now is making statement big time!!!"

how could someone like you WHO HAD BEEN EDUCATED end up saying those filthy words??!
Indi ka ba naturuan ng "HUMAN ETHICS"? sad.

tsk.tsk.

may you live in peace.dami ng galit sayo.

God bless and good luck! =)

Kasiyahan sa Kalungkutan

2009-09-26T17:59:00.006+08:00

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last night. haha. officially, we're over.

Sabi mo, hahanapin mo lang sarili mo. Baket? Ilang oras na bang nawawala? Ipa blatter na lang naten, 'wag mo lang akong iwan.

Sabi mo, mahal mo pa din ako. Kung ganito ka pala magmahal, kawawa naman pala talaga ako.

binayaan nya na 'ko [update of 'babayaan mo na 'ko?]

2009-09-26T17:54:00.003+08:00

totoo na pala i2. iniwan nya na ako. sabi ko na nga ba. nararamdaman ko na, noon pa. hay, ok lang. pasasaan ba't ika'y aking malilimutan. Di ka na maalala pa. Matutunan ulit tumawa't mag saya kahit di ka kasama.

So anu na? Makonsensya ka sana. Hehe. Biro lang. Wala akong sama ng loob kase alam ko naman na dito rin tayo magtatapos. Kaso hindi pa sana ako handa. Pero wala na atang magagawa. Wala ka na. Di na kita pipigilan pa. Kahit yun ang gusto kong gawin. Kase, di kita kayang tiisin. Pero tulad ng sinabi ko, tapos na nga pala tayo. Hanggang dito na lang ako, mag tyatyaga sa alaala mo.

Bahala na. Ayoko munang magsalita.. - Lyrics sa song na Kundiman ng Silent Sanctuary.

Kainis! baket kase kita dinala sa Mcdo! ;(

update [sa wakas nasabi ko na!]

2009-09-23T21:36:00.004+08:00

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last night yun anu? ng sinabi ko kanya my feelings for her. Well, here's the update of what happened this whole day.

Well, maghapon ang klase. I just had time to be with them (friends including 'her') after lunchtime.
Tulad pa rin kame ng dati.
But I have this limitations. hehe.
Wala lang, iwas sakit kung baga. If I come too close to her, like what we used to before I told her the 'truth', I might end up 'hoping' that we can be you know what.

Lakas pati ng appeal nya kanina ay! Lalo akong nahulog. Nakakainis mang aminin, pero wala eh, hanggang sito na lang ako, nangangarap na mapa sayo. =(

'Di na ko aasa. Kase alam ko na kung asan ako sayo..
Alam ko namang hindi pwedeng tayo.
Ako pa nga nagsabi nun diba?
Sabi ko, "Hindi ako pumapatol sa barkada."
Pero alam mo ba? Alam ko na nun na gusto kita.
Kinukumbinsi ko rin sarili ko nun.
Na wag kang mahalin ng ganun.
Kaso ito na oh, gusto na kita,
Ay hindi pala,
Mahal na pala kita.
kahit alam kong walang pag asa
kahit alam kong sya ang gusto mong talaga.
pasenxa na ah?
Di ko naman 'to sinasada.
Pinigilan ko pa nga.
aan mo na to,
mawawala na lang tong parang bula
Sa pag lipas ng araw,
Malilimutan ko rin 'to.
Sana.

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sa wakas nasabi ko na!

2009-09-22T21:25:00.003+08:00

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Fin'lly.. I said it to her! Hahaha. Idk kun saen ako nag hugot ning kusog boot. Basta I just text it away to her.

I said, "Gusto ta ka. Pero don't worry, I dont expect anything. I think, I have to tell you. Yun lang."

She replied, "Panu si Cris? wla ba tong joke?"

Cris is my "close friend" right now.

I said, "wala ngang joke. Di ba usapan naten, wala tayong joke2."

Ya. I know. Indi ko sinagot yung first question... How could I? I don't even know how I feel about Criz. Basta Criz is good to me and supportive and loving and understanding and caring.

She replied, "Oh, anu c Criz? mahal mu? gusto mo?"

Arrg! How could she ask me that thing?! Dapat wala na syang paki dun. Hahaha. 'Di ko sya maintindihan. Gusto ko sanang sagot nia about it is if she likes me too. Um, I know, I should ask her. But I can't... Remember? I told her na "i don't expect anything."

So yun.

I just said, "Maybe I like Criz, but I like you more."

which is true! Gosh, I could dump anyone for her! 'di nya yan alam.

Then she replied, "Thank you sa pagiging honest. Matutulog na 'ko. Gudnayt!"

Ahhhoouch. Yeah. I feel sudden pain. But I get out of it. Then I feel stupid. haha.

Kanina lang, we stroll sa mall. Nag videoke kame! Kumanta ako. Migraine by Moonstar88. As I was singing...

Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo.

Hanggang dito na lang ako, Nangangarap na mapa sayo.

Nahihilo. Nalilito. Asan ba ko sayo.

Aasa ba ko sayo.

...I was looking at her. Really looking. I dunno if our friends noticed it. She's smiling nga at me. Like what she used to... the smile that melts me. hay nakuu.

tomorrow. tomorrow will be the judgment day. bukas, i will face the consequence of being so honest. how tragic! naging honest na nga, may consequence pa din!

buti pa si Red ng "dahil May isang ikaw", binigyan na ng chance ni Leah Alferos. Hahaha.

Ako negative na, ever since! Baket kase magmamahal man lang, sa dae pa pwede.

Pero xmpz, dae ako matugot na ako ang babayaan. I don't want to be left hanging. I love myself more than anything else, that is why I'm going to protect myself first. I will shield myself from her. Ako na maiwas. Not super iwas. Baka mahalata kame kang friends mi. Lie low lang muna. Ako ang mang babaya. Baku sya. Hahaha. Unfair ako nuh?

So guess, this is it. I can breathe easily now. Atleast I have nothing to hide.

Garu ang drama ko...

after kong sabihon saiya na I like her, I'll take her for granted. Hehe. Wala lang. To protect myself. =)

gudnayt!

babayaan mo na ‘ko??

2009-09-21T21:19:00.001+08:00

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magsabi na.

para dae na ‘ko mag asa.

dae tabi ko gibuhung tanga.

napanung sa ateneo pa ‘ko nag eskwela.

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kung baka akala mo ako makukulugan ning sobra

kung baka akala mo hihibian taka.

kung baka akala mo hahanapun taka.

iyo talaga. tama ka.

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Pero ini ang makasuya ngonian.

Nagiging emo na ‘ko, ai inda, dae ko na aram

Pag nakukulugan mo ‘ko, “let go” ang drama

Pero pag tigtetext mo na ako, umm, heaven na.

Mahiling ka lang, ayos na.

Lalo na kung an kamot ko, kakaputan mo pa.

Ay, kung pwede ka lang idulag.

Dae ako maduwa-duwang darahon sakuyang bag.

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pero kung mas maugma ka na mayo na ‘ko

ta kung baka may nakalinya ng karibay ko

ooh ‘di saka, anung pang hinahalat mo?

magsabi na tulos ta baka nasasakitan na konsensya mo.

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Ma asa pa gayod ako na mabalik ka pa

Xmpz kase padangat taka.

Siguro hahalatun ko man giraray text mo pag aga.

Maski aram kong mayo na kong mababasa.

Siguro hihilingun ko man giraray email ad ko pag ala una

Ta malay ko man baga, mag online ka.

Siguro, mamumundo ako pag sabado

Lalo na kung ako mapa Mcdo.

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Kaso mayo na gayod ko kayan magiginibo.

Aakuun ko na lang ta iyo man gayud yan desisyon mo.

Kung ika sa iba nagka gusto.

Ayos lang, basta baku sa kabaro mo.

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Makangiritun man,

Nakapag gibo ako ning tulang may rhyme

Iba na talaga pag udok sa boot

Nagigibo maski makulog.

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Si plano ta palan to watch movie,

Garo baku na ako ang makakaiba mo adi?

Baka digdi na lang ko sa harong mag sine

Sayang kya kang 100, dae man ko makakadalan tultol

Ta ang isip ko saimo naka ukol.

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So anu na? Anung plano?

Baka gusto mong ipaaram sako.

Anu baya talaga, ako maasa pa?

Simbagun sana ang hapot ko,

Ano? Babayaan mo na ‘ko?

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Pahabol:

Dae ka mag alaala na masusulo ako.

O baka worried ka na mayo sakong masalo

Kaya takang ribayan,

Pira bagang gayo an gusto mo?

….

=)

ninja09.21.09

iiwan nya na 'ko!

2009-09-21T20:03:00.003+08:00

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kahit 'di nya sabihin, kahit 'di nya aminin, nararamdaman ko pa rin.
iiwan nya na 'ko.

bakit 'di ko maaming wala na ang dating damdamin,
hindi na ganun.

Seminarians on Groove

2009-09-14T10:06:00.005+08:00

this is how they do it...

I took this during the MYC (Marian youth congress) mass.
Everyone was invited to dance, as well as these clever seminarians [who got carried away??]
pinanindugan na ninda..
mati mati pating gayu.

well, these seminarians will continue this 'cool ideas' para ang mga kabataan, maging active sa mga arog kaning activities. sana mapagayun pa ninda lalo.

Marian Youth Congress 2009

2009-09-13T08:47:00.007+08:00

kakaabot ko lang sa harong. Dae ko pwedeng palagpason ang pagkakataon na maisiwalat sa mundo ang nangyaring MYC ngonian na taon. Maski ngani tungakaun pa akong maray asin ang sakuyang bitis nagtatanglay pa, uya na ko. Ihahatod na saendo ang pinaka bagong bareta sa lado lokal kang Bicol. naks!

Kasabay kang Traslacion ngonian na nag ngangadang- ngadang na ang kapistahan ni Ina, kinundisir ang sarung aktibidad na nagpapatunay na ang mga hobenes dae lang presente sa Beer Plaza, Battle of the Bands o anu pang kaugmahan sa Plaza kundi urog ng gayo sa pag omaw sa satuyang Mahal na Ina.

Hali sa manlain-lain na lugar, skwelahan, simbahan... ang mga hobenes nagkasararo sa pag rukaw asin pag hurop-hurop kang presenteng panahaon. Gatos na hobenes ang uminabot asin nakisumaro sa debosyon ki Ina.

Ang kaugmahan ko ta ang simbahan nag gibo talaga ning paagi kung pano ma seselebrar ang MYC in modern way. hehe. Sa misa, ang gamit na musical instrument, sarung set ning banda. Kya ang mga songs, may beat. Tpos pde kang mag sabay sa beat, upak, bayle. Ang Alleluia, Alleluia pdeng kang bayle~! hahaha. Saan ka pa? Ini ang patunay na ang simbahan, ginigibo gabos na paagi para ang hobenes ngonian mahimok na mamoot asin makisumaro sa satong pag-tubod bilang preparasyon saenda, sa mga masurunod na mapayaman kang inaataman na debosyon.

May kaugmahan pa ako. Mga seminarians na nagbabarayle! ay ta. enjoyun sinda. Mati-mati talaga! hahahaha. Mga taga Major seminary gayud 'to. Mag ggwapo pati! hahaha. Sinda na ang masunod na mapadagos kang arog kaning mga celebration ideas.. =) Hagad ko na mapagayun lugod lalo.

Pagkatapos kang misa, nagkaugwa ning Prayer Time. Ang makamundo lang sa part na ini ta garo may mga tao talagang dae tataong sabihan ning saru sana. Kaipuhan pang ulit-uliton na mag pundo na muna kariribok. Hay, garo baga mauutsanan sinda pag dae nakataram. Sana next year, magpaka civilize na ang mga taong ini. Makasupog. Pero sa kinatapusan, nag silencio man giraray asin naka pray man ning matuninong.

Pagkatapos kang Prayer time, nagkaugwa ning kaugmahan sa laog kang cathedral. May banda, may nagbarayle... nagkaranta... kung baga, may concert. hehe. Anas anas nag urugma. Maski ako! hehe. Maski ngani mapagal, dae tig mamati. Maski suruksukan. Basta yaun kame duman, naging parte kang selebrasyon, solve na!

Salamat na lang ta may open na canteen sa Minor Seminary na ang kape, 30% less kesa sa ibang stall.. hehe.

Tapos salamat sa mga nag partisipar! See you next year!

Sa mga dae pa nakaka try, mag register na kamo. Patunayan nindo na kita mawot asin capable na maging tagapamana kang debosyon sa satuyang Mahal na Ina...

Dae man lugod niato biguon ang satuyang kamagurangan... kita ang inaasahan nindang magpatalubo kani sa masunud na henerasyon... kya dapat lang na tabangan ta ang satuyang simbahan na e-prepare kita sa pag aku kaini.

God bless!!

PHOTOS

ninja.09.13.09

Sudden Grief

2009-09-02T20:26:00.003+08:00

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few minutes ago, I received a SMS from my cousin Cris. That message was informing me that Tin's (our dear friend) grandmother was diagnosed with cancer few days ago. It also says there that Tin's Grandma decided not to be admitted to any hospital. She said that she'll just wait for Jesus to held her hand and she'll let go everything. Cris also ask for prayers which I'll give with my whole heart in it.

It's a bit hard for me to accept. I've been through the same situation before. My Lolo (Grandpa, mother side) was diagnosed with cancer when I was in highschool. I was 10-11 years old I think. I'm not so sure with the specific name of his cancer but I heard that it was a rare one. Too bad, my beloved Lolo had it.

I remember how my Lolo hugged us and bite our ears or tickle our neck. He's so supportive and very proud of how we grow up. He would go to our house and bring us some fruits like guavas! Big ones, mind you! I love him so much.

to be continued.... (i have to study first!)

I can't give you the reason... I just want to let go.

2009-08-30T07:55:00.005+08:00

I feel so sorry for myself. I don't want it this way. Just four months ago, I was so absorb by you... 3 months ago, I can't get through the day if I got no email from you... 2 months ago, I always looked up for weekends 'cause that's the day I am able to hang around with you... I even wrote some poems about missing you badly. But that's before and now, I don't know if I want to stay that way.

I feel sick 'cause I don't know how I'll say this. We even planned to watch the movie "Up". But I think it won't happen anymore 'cause I'm not sure if it's you I want to be with on the showing dates.

I feel like crying 'cause I don't want us to end this way. I don't want you to think that I played fool on you.

I feel so stupid. I even told myself that you're gonna be the first guy I would like my parents to meet. But guess It's not going to happen anymore 'cause I can't even say yes to you when you ask me out on weekends.

I feel so broken 'cause I think you'll be hurt if you knew 'bout this. And that hinders me to say that we should let this go.

Ateneo Intramurals 09 : Engaging New Frontiers Beyond Sports

2009-08-19T09:28:00.006+08:00

Congratulations to the Champion!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

College of Arts and Sciences

my college! proud to be AB Comm.! yehei!

2nd place - ACE

3rd - JPIA

4th - UECS

5th - ABBS

6th - ANSA

mga AS humble lang... pero champion palan!
not to mention ang mga kalaban namen, mga varsity players... tapos kme, walang varsity sa team.

for the greater GLORY of God... . hahahahahahahaha.

GO GO CHAMPIONS!!!

Father Tabora (University President) announced that there will be no classes for from 19th to 20th. Not just because we REALLY need rest but also beacuse the school needs to be sanitized. well, that's sweet. =)

ateneo site

nostalgia

2009-08-07T15:44:00.002+08:00

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Yikes. I feel so homesick again.
Parang I want to go home.

Sana Holiday na lang bukas.

Dami ko nanamang namimiss.
Like my kapatids.
Miss ko na rin ung duyan dun.
& the spot where I read my books.
Even the smell of the air.
The ambiance....
Hay, If you only know how I felt.

How I wish I could drew back... kahit 5 minutes lang.

Akala Ko... Yun Pala

2009-08-02T12:40:00.009+08:00

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Nakita ko lang 'tong tinitingnan ng pinsan ko sa PC ( he's a 7 year old boy).
Nki usyuso ako. Check nyo din. High Tech na talaga ang pangangampanya ngayon.
Sa site na 'to, kelangan mong dugtungan ang salitang AKALA KO... YUN PALA...
Try nyo e-visit, may madidiskobre kayo na magpapasaya sa araw nyo!

example:
Akala ko site ni Villar... Yun Pala joke site. (here)

Below is my shoutout:

Injana said

"Akala ko ang mga kabataan kuntento ng walang pakialam sa bansa Yun Pala nais rin nilang makiisa sa pagbabago."

Lahat tayo maraming maling akala sa buhay, maliit man o malaki. Kung gusto mo i-tama ang mga maling akala, mag log-on ka sa AkalaMo.com

nothing has changed

2009-08-02T11:06:00.005+08:00

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what a nonsense way to start the month!
I feel so lazy. I slept exactly 8 hours. (just like a little girl should do). I went to bed at 12am and woke up 10am. My head hurts. My soul floats in the sunny but windy weather outside the door. I have dreams... daydreams... weird ones.

I was still lying in bed when I started to feel nostalgic.

It's sunday morning and nung bata pa 'ko, by this time, siguro, kumakain ako ng champorado with powdered milk on top. Tapos, I will have my playmates gathered in our backyard... ready to compete with me sa mga laro namen like step-no. Hehe. And nung mga 12 years old ako, sunday morning would be in front of the TV, watching B1 and B2 or Heidi or MYX instead. I miss those days! Swear!

I did wished to go back time, let's say when I was a 6 year old little girl. I even close my eyes pretending that when I open it I would be a 6 year old again. Just like what I had watched in the movies. Pero I know nothing will happen and I feel sad. Really. I think I should stop watching movies like that.

What makes it more nostalgic is parang na fefeel ko yung ambiance noon. Yung sounds... the smell. Its depressing!

I miss my childhood days sooooooooooo much! ='(

But then, Naisip ko din na buti na lang 'di ako binalik ng panahon. Cause if it did, madadaanan ko ulit yung mga painful moments noon. Like when my Lolo died. Atleast now, I moved on. Though sometimes, namimiss ko si Lolo, like now. Teary eye ako. hehe. I'm so emotional today! Bakit kaya?? This is really weird. I don't want look back the 'reason' why my parents had to separate (most painful of all). Now, everything's fine. They're back together. Though may misunderstandings pa sometimes, at least, they can work it out easily than before. Ayoko ding balikan yung graduation day ko. Or yung JS Prom! Haha. Pati yung time na lumayas ako sa bahay namen ( lumipat ako sa bahay ng lola ko which is 45 minutes-ride away from my parents home). Dami ko palang ayaw balikan... Those painful moments are the reasons why I love change... why it is hard to go back kahit alam mo na along the way, magiging masaya ka rin.

Pero mas marami pa rin yung gusto kong balikan.
Tons of memories.
Na I won't exchange to anyone.

I won't exchange.
Lalo na yung time na I met that guy in his personalized bracelet.
or his paper-made rose ('di nia binigay sakin ung rose. Nakita ko lang na naka display.)
or his red shirt where I wrote something (name nia lang naman and with his permission)
toinks... I'm missing him.
Di nia alam, I like him still.
And maybe if he comes back, and he likes me na,
I'm sure, I'll fall in love 300x than before.
(he didn't liked me as crush or something. He treated me like a friend or sister something.)
When he left, I wasn't around.
I was here na sa ciudad.
Nalaman ko na lang na umalis na sya through a friend.
Tapos, wala naman kaming communication.
How could that be possible?!
Eh, he doesn't like me nga.
Meron syang communication dun sa mga type nyang girls.

Pero last March 08... we texted each other for 3o minutes.
We exchange messages.
Yung na sent na saakin, maybe four messages.
I don't remember kung ilan na sent ko sakanya.
The words he texted to me that I remember most was:
"mataray ka pa rin."

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iiyak na 'ko.

2009-08-01T19:59:00.003+08:00

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I'M ALL ALONE.

They all went home for weekend. But since I have my Saturday classes, I have no choice but to be left behind.

Haii. Ayoko talaga ng iniiwan. Kaso may dapat akong e-prioritize, kya I have to choose between the two: GOING HOME or ATTENDING MY CLASS.

If I go home, I'll be happy. Syempre, makikita ko yung mga kapatid ko. Kahit mejo war kame ni Mama ngayon. Hehe. Miss ko pa rin yun. I lived most of my life without them. Laking-lola ako. ung kapatid ko, may boyfriend na pala, 'di ko alam. (BAWAL) 'Di ko man lang masabihan yung kapatid ko na "Wag na muna, kapatid. Bata ka pa. Si ate na muna mahalin mo." Hindi ko rin alam na nahihirapan pala sya sa Math. Sinubukan kong syang turuan, kaso kulang yung oras... Kelangan nanamang bumalik dito sa ciudad para pumasok sa school kinabukasan. Yung bunso namin (5 years old), 'di ko man lang naturuan ng "ABC". Marunong na pala yung bumasa. Hindi ko rin alam na hindi pala sya kumakain ng pakwan. Ilan lamang ang mga yan sa mga nalaman ko nung nag stay ako samin last April. Dame ko ng na mimiss sa buhay ng mga kapatid ko. At madami pang chapter ng buhay nila ang mamimiss ko kase alam ko, pag tapos na ko mag-aral... lalayo ulit ako para mag trabaho. Syempre, para sakanila pa rin. Kelan nga ba ung last na uwi ko? Birthday ni Daddy... nung June 13. One whole day lang yun ahh. Tapos uwi rin kame agad kase may pasok na. Buti nga ung birthday ni Daddy pumatak nung wala kaming pasok. Haii nkuu, Its awful. I can barely understand feelings right now. All I know is I miss them... badly. =(

Sana alam nila noh?

Iiyak na 'ko. jowk.

To PAT

2009-07-30T21:01:00.000+08:00

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NOTE: For the first time... may .

nag comment sa blogspot ko! hhe.
Hi PAT she's a multiply user... hhe. thnx for the comment. magulo ang blog ko but you understand. that's good. hhe.

Tested and true

2009-07-30T20:57:00.002+08:00

Tested and True – Secondhand Serenade Music Code

Credits : Videokeman.com

I didn't made it

2009-07-27T11:55:00.002+08:00

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I didn't made it to second screening for Ateneo Ambassador.

Photos For Memoirs

2009-07-26T19:58:00.002+08:00

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during summer 09

childhood memories (location: Cagliliog)

childhood memories (location: Cagliliog)

After the procession last April 09
(memorable vacation ever!)

Platon (just from break-up with Olive)

HOARDING of THOUGHTS: how much do you love me?

2009-07-26T19:14:00.009+08:00

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I wonder if this question has an answer.

All I am aware of is that you're the last person I'm thinking of before I fall asleep
And you're the first person I think about in the morning.

All I am aware of is that I want to be with you
Hold your hand... or hold your shirt's sleeve.

All I am aware of is that I love looking at you
While you laugh... while you talk... or when you do nothing.

All I am aware of is that I'm finding ways to see you
Even just a glimpse... Even from afar... Even unnoticed.

I'm not certain if this would last forever.
If I could spend my life with you 'til our hair turns gray.
But what I am sure is that I am happy with you.

Maybe I can't say that I love you so much.
But what I am sure is that you're one of the people who makes my life worth living.

And if God don't permit us to have each other for a lifetime,
I'll accept it and be contented that once in my life our paths crossed
Giving me the chance to live my life everyday knowing you're mine.

Message Sent

2009-07-26T18:58:00.003+08:00

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♠mAtt♠
07/26/2009 2:56 pm

I met a girl named DARLENE
An' She lived in the heart of Dagatlandia
She liked black caddies
Listens to Secondhand Serenade
Surfed until her eyes were sore

And how much longer
Will this keep getting stronger???
I wonder what she's doing when I'm singing myself to sleep...

am missing you!

A message I received from him. I dunno how to react. It's so overwhelming that I can hardly breathe. I know I looked stupid. This is just a simple message from him. Maybe he had made thousands of same for his past Girlfriends... (i hate that thought!) but you see, I don't mind. I'm missing him. =(

SO true:

2009-07-25T21:05:00.003+08:00

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Every heart sings a song, incomplete, until another heart whispers back.
Those who wish to sing always find a song.
"At the touch of a lover, everyone becomes a poet."

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naka relate ako.
ouch tuloy!

source: http://thinkexist.com

HOARDING of THOUGHTS: raindrops

2009-07-25T20:36:00.004+08:00

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And when the rain falls
I wish you're behind me
Ready to hug me so tightly
To make me feel okey
And when the rain falls
I remember the day you left on that bus
And I dunno where to start
It's so cold and dark outside.
And when the rain falls
I always think of you
And I pretend that everything will be undo
And when I wake up
You're lying next to me
And I can finally touch your face
And feel your embrace

-NINJA07.19.09

HOARDING of THOUGHTS: 8 days away

2009-07-25T20:22:00.006+08:00

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It's been eight days already
And I can't figure out why
Someone like you I can't forget
Even just for a minute

It's been eight days already
I ask myself how could this be
I just can't put out of my mind
It's stuck in my head

Every morning I wake up
I wish you're next to me
you make my life so silly
You're like A melody.

Cause in my heart it's all you
When we're apart, I can't move
This can't be true
I can't stop thinking of you

I'd like to climbed up the wall
That separates us, oh it's miserable
Not to see your eyes
Not to hear your laugh
I'll be dead tomorrow
If we can't be together now.

It's been eight days already
And I don't know how long could this be
All I know is I'm missing you badly
Ang the way you hold my hand
While smiling at me! =)

-NINJA07.19.09

DEFINITONS OF LOVE

2009-07-24T19:45:00.003+08:00

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Love is like a ghost. Everybody talks about it but only few have seen it.
- A book I forgot the title.

LOVE is like a butterfly which when you pursued is always just beyond your gasp, but which if you sit down quietly, may light upon you.
-kuya lanz

perz time

2009-07-24T19:28:00.004+08:00

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This is another blessed day! Why??

Today... today... was my second screening for ASA. It went well. To be honest, I felt comfy with Ate Kor, the interviewer. Feeling ko I belong to ASA... kase my last two interviewers were so nice to talk with. I didn't realized how time passed by and I have to leave & Ate kor have to get back to her office.

And guess what... today?? today... I stepped inside the Ateneo church, for the first time. =) I've been inside the Ateneo Campus for almost 3 months already but I haven't tried to go there... not 'til today. =)

And today... today... basta today.. hehe. today is the day. haii nkuu. kilig.=)

i missed the longest eclipse ever!

2009-07-22T21:56:00.006+08:00

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Nasa classroom ako (English Subject) ng mag eclipse. A friend texted me lang. =( I tried to go out. I even went downstairs from 2nd floor of Arrupe. Kaso nahiya ako.. hehe. I feel so stupid so bumalik na lang ako. It lasted 6 minutes daw here in the Philippines. And partial eclipse lang ang nakita. But still, it's amazing to witness such creation. But but... there's always a next time... =) next year, on January, another eclipse will happen according to NASA. Who knows... it could be on my birth date! =) nice! i must've been lucky then!

Tonight's a great night. =) Tranquil, cool breeze, quiet, you won't hear anything aside from airing telenovelas on TV. hehe. I looked at the sky. And It feels good. I sent SMS to my friends to tell them that its a beautiful night. Some replied me with "Why?", some replied me with "Anu gwa mo?" haha. Sabi ko "Its the stars." Wala lang. Kase, kahit wala si Mr. Moon, maganda pa rin ang langit. It made me realize something... " sometimes, though things are incomplete, it could still make itself bloom on its own." Like love. When someone left us... that someone who made us so happy and later on... made us feel so incomplete... But then, the fact is, though they're gone in our lives... though they walked out in our paths... we can still be as beautiful as the stars in the sky... we can shine like them... 'cause it is we who handle ourselves. It is up to us if we want to be someone who have and continues to prove something. Or someone who wants to be a prisoner of the past. Who wants to be a prisoner?! umm. You bet! No one.

yesterday once's more

2009-07-19T13:21:00.006+08:00

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yesterday was a great day!
I'm exhausted but just so fine 'cause I was happy.
although I got pissed before we went home.

Thanks to SM Mall, it's been a great way to celebrate Mama's b-day with Daddy, Sobi and Pj. Let's begin it with attending the 7:00 am mass then
We went Greenwich for a Pizza Square & Magic Brownies with a pitcher of Ice tea. (it's weird having a pitcher though, I feel like buying some Beer).

you don't know how I felt when I saw Mama & Daddy so sweet together~! It made me wonder if I'll ever be on the same situation after 50 years. I dunno. I even don't like the idea of getting married. But seeing the couple together with their white hairs and wrinkled forehead (no offense Ma) it's quite convincing that there's REAL love that last forever. Like theirs. But who knows... it NOT applicable for me. Anyway, this is not about me. It's about them so I just shut my self up.

While they were walking yesterday, I smiled because I can see how happy they were! Not to mention that they had misunderstanding two (2) Days before Mama's Birthday. Oh! Oh! another good thing about Mama And Daddy??? When they got mad at each other... it doesn't end there. The make sure it'll be all right before the day ends. They always end up making "lambing" at each other. Sounds silly though. But on the other side... it is so so so sweet. It shows that they got no regrets having each other 'til they get old. =)

Daddy went home after we had a pizza galore. The rest of us (including Mama) watched ICE AGE 3!!!! yeah. you bet! It's like Sobi's birthday! Well, it's nice to be like a kid. I love the movie. swear! After the movie... we dropped by at Mcdonalds before going home. Love fries and flurry!!! And that's that! I greeted Mama. we all did.

It's a memorable day... not because of the food but becuase of the movie. Nuh. Just kidding. I woont forget that moment where I feel like so contented. =)

Some photos from yesterday. =)

that's me at McDonalds counter.
I didn't know how silly my position is
'til I saw this picture taken by Pj.

Mc Flurry +)

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she's 71 but she doesn't look like one

2009-07-17T21:46:00.006+08:00

it's MAMA TESS' BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!!!!

July 17th, 2009

yehhee.. Mama tess will turn sweet 71 tomorrow… she doesn’t’ look like one though, honestly! She’s so young for her age. Just invert the number and it’s my age!!! mama tess is a good, i mean the best grandmother for all of us and I know… God’s taking care of her well and the rest of the family. I pray for it every sunday.

me and mama tess. and my lil sister dandan. see how sweet we are?!

I still remember when I was a kid… how I hugged her from behind in the morning while she’s cooking in the kitchen. Then she’ll give me my meal (champorado) with powder milk on top… =) and the time we exercise our foot and wrist in bed (she can make a ‘klok’ sound on her foot!). The bedtime stories back then… when she have to scratch my back ’til I dozed off and when she stops scratching, I wiggle my arms then she’ll start scratching again. hehe. I remember when we do ROSARY at night… she falls asleep while reciting the Hail MAry and I have to call her “Ma…”. Or those mornings when she have to wake me up for school and I said, 10 minutes… 5 minutes Ma… Last 1 minute Ma… though I don’t really know the time span of that.

Hayy, those days… where are they? Time passed so fast and here I am now, can’t even hugged her. ( I kiss her though, before I leave the house ) I feel like crying.. huhu. She’s right here watching TV. I can’t even tell her that I love her even she always nag at me specially in the morning when I have hard time getting up…. or when she tells me for the 20th time on how to act like a simple and graceful girl. (I’m a lousy one!) or how to walk like a lady… or what shoes I have to wear ( you must wear heels, she said) But you know… she supports me well. When I tell her something how well I did in school, she always sa something nice. And when I tell her something bad (like, failing an exam) she just give some homily (which were true, sometimes) and tells me, there’e a next time and I should do it well if I want a better future (very true) I disappoint her so much I know. And I am so sorry about it. I’m a human… I’m not perfect. All that’s perfect for me is 100% I love her.

daddy’s 69, Mama’s 71. Few years more… maybe 7 or 6 years more… it’s their Gold Wedding Anniversary ( january 30th). And I have huge plan for that day. That’s one of lot of reasons why I keep moving upward. I have to prepare big bucks to celebrate it grand. And I can do that with the help of the Almighty God. To keep them healthy and safe for years to come so that I can fulfill one of my greatest plans… and to keep me safe too. hehe. I’m the planner, I must be there on that day! and to guide me (and the rest of the whole family).

Maybe right now, all we can do on her birthday is to go outside and watch movie ( ICE AGE 3 ) and eat in our favorite chain, Mcdonalds… nut give me 3 years… just 3 years… and i can even throw a party just like Nanay Dionisia’s (Mann Pacquio’s mother) party.

My family is all I got…. I love them! =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA TESS!

i was touched.

2009-07-17T12:08:00.002+08:00

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I wasn't expecting this. But I found this out. A friendster blog by Anne for me.
Here's what she said:

c dalene???

Filed under: Uncategorized — fhaxhaliqoh at 4:37 pm on Thursday, July 16, 2009

anu kaya???

c dal??

graveeeeeeee…dati ncean nunian atenista na!!!!!!!!!!!

mproving ka tlaga..heheheh..piatos,cream-o,nova,vcut and etc.mau lng..fav,fuds ni dal kd2,,

inda lng nunian.maurag nie na kbarkada.dae nangwawalat sa ere..aq man lng ang dae maurag.ehem:

dakula xa kawaran k2ng oras na tagilid kme duwa..as in!!!kala q mawawara na tlaga xa,,kala q dae na nia q tuturing na brkada kd2..well,uni!!mai anu na ani gru,,unp..mai limitaxon na.ehe!

manghahasik ning lagim jan sa bago nia skul..

ehehehehehe..

secretary mi pln ani yan sa dept.mi tas nghali..

durudalagan na kia..

hehehehehehe…

>>dunno what to say. I'm touched but pag naalala ko mga nangyarii... I think, it's better to strenghten the wall I made between us. I treated her as my bestfriend before and I did everything for her but now... I'm not sure anymore if I'm still willing to fulfill the promise that we're going to Paris together the time we can afford it already.

HOARDING of THOUGHTS: not made for you

2009-07-14T20:36:00.004+08:00

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I know you're wondering
Why I made this song
Do you know this is made for you?
Should I tell you? Or hide this through?

Few questions hang in my mind.
I don't care if I look crazy dumb.
Did you notice how I look at you?
Or you're too busy to see the truth?

I wanna hold your hand so tight.
To feel it 'til the end of the night.
But it's not just right.
And I know that from the start.
But this feeling I can't fight.

If only I could... I'd tell you this.
So I won't have to be in abyss.
But I know that's an absurd thing to do.
'Cause it's not the way it should be.

Tell me I'm abnormal.
Im sick. Im pathetic.
But when you smile
You make my life worthwhile.

-ahahaha.. nkuu. nka buo na q ng lyrics!!! Emo nga lang.. gr

july 13, 09 9:00

2009-07-13T21:06:00.002+08:00

gustuhoon ko man.. ipangadyi ko man... baliktadun ko man ang gabos... gibuhuun ko man gabos...

saru lang conclusion...

DAE KAME PWEDE.

& it hurts.

haii.

it's just me.

2009-07-13T21:01:00.002+08:00

.8:40 July13, 09

Right now...
I wish, I was born on different time.

Sa panahon na pwede tayo.
Sa panahon na IT'S NOT A MISTAKE TO LOVE YOU.

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silly revelation

2009-07-13T20:42:00.003+08:00

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wooosh.
need to breath. inhale........ exhale...... can't let the air pass through my nose while looking @ your precious name on my "friend request"... 8:40 july 13, 09.

I know this ain't right. never been. I know what to do.. but i cant help falling! haii..
sana sa ibang lugar na lang ako pinanagnak.
yung pwede tayo. =)
yung I can make you mine without any hesitation. grr.

I have to let this thing go. I have to disregard this 'cause wala tong patutunguhan.
Hindi kame pwede. Sobrang hindi. Haii.

I did hold your hand.
And I can't let it go. Kung pwede ko lang hawakan yun ng matagal na 'di mo nahahalata na gusto kita......

Haii.. can't help staring at you. But I have to control myself kase baka mahalata mo ako. And umiwas ka na... and masira yung friendship... yan ang pinaka ayaw kong mangyari kase I know... ONLY with this friendship I can get closer to you.... More than friends??? haha. No way. Impossible. You won't. We won't. Labag sa batas. haha. Haii, If nabuhay lang talaga ko with totally different identity... sana... sana... sana...

All I know ryt now is I must stopped this feeling I feel for you 'cause this ain't right. Cause we're forbidden to be so. Cause it's not what we are made for. I just need to be contented with what we are now. Mere friends. Di mo alam, just one smile from you and I'll melt. Di mo alam... when I look at you... may kasamang message yun... I think I'm falling for you. But we can't be the way I want us to be.

have i told you...

2009-07-08T20:25:00.002+08:00

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last week of June, I lost my Socio book.

so I have to get another one means... another payment.

i hate it. sayang ng 300!

anyway... I hate our exams!

really.

Just imagine.. the instruction was...

"Answer 10 items correctly, you'll get five points. Make one mistake, NO point at all."

Haha. ewan q naa.

hai nakuu.

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oh anyway, I wanna share this quote I personally made when I was on confused stage with ma. Ma. Ma. Makdoo. hhe.

"Life must be sarcastic

It sent love when I less expect it.

Life must be cruel too!

It took that love away just after I realized that I needed it badly."

---I sent it to daphne, my friend who's having regrets of being soooo pakipot with a guy who "likes" her. umm. learn from her!

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07.04.09

2009-07-04T19:32:00.003+08:00

-don't say anything. Just read.

Aram quu mababsa mo nne.
now na aram mo na ang blog nane.

And I'm a little uneasy
knowing u'll get to know
what I think 'bout things
specially 'bout YOU.

Naicp quu 2 just erase what I've written.
So you won't have any chance of reading it.
But, it's another way around accg. to my own principles.
And besides, napagal akong mag type kadto.
Nobela pati.

So I'm just gonna request you something...
"Just read please. Don't make any comments."

Pde ka man mag comment... BUT NOT about what I wrote about US/YOU.
These are my private thoughts... and now na na reveal na 2u ang girl behind this blog, it won't be private anymore to you. .. kia just shut your "good" mouth. Don't mention anything to me if we're together... Just read.

anyway... I miss you.

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07.06.09

2009-07-04T15:47:00.003+08:00

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things happen when you less expect it.

-hate to say this but it's true. things just smash you in the face without a warning. (gru daa xa. haha. anyway, may kataid ako now... c Brod.na mau ng ginibo kundi mag hapot... nag cocomment xa now sa FS kang cousin nia). so back to my story. I'm so shocked. And unprepared for this something. I guess I have to say thank you to this person beside me who asked me out today. But I think I have to get that thank you back cause it's me pla who decided na we should meet here @ LCC. Maybe this is what they call fate. Or just mere incident? I was choosing kanina from bunch of books here in Expressions (LCC Branch). I

was sitting while looking for some books to read. I just unconciously looked up and I saw a pair of eyes so familiar to me. I even asked myself... "Kilala ko ba yun?" Tiningnan ko ulit sya. He's browsing some books. My heart raced. I feel like melting. I can't even stand up. I just sit there, unsure of what I'm gonna do. In just a snap, I can't think & I am so so so nonsense. I fin'lly gathered myself so I stood up and looked on his way. I really can't think. Did he recognized me? Or not? Should I come near him & greet him? Or should I just let it go. I still remember how fascinated I was in him five years ago. It's unclear to me how it ended. For sure he's unaware of how I feel that time for him. And maybe, I was just overwhelmed by his gestures to me. Umm. maybe. maybe not. Ow anyway, it's ok. It's nice to see him with 1 meter away from me. =) for the first time. hhe.

Kanina after class, dumaan kami ni Daf sa terminal & his house was just near & I saw him there. (mau nqng maisip.)Sabi quu pa ki Daf, "can we stay for awhile? I just wanna know what he's doing..." but Daf refused cuz she's so tired na daw. Tapos naun... naun... naun... naun nga... dko ini-expect na makikita ko sya today... sa malapitan... 10X nearer from where I stood kanina sa may Terminal. How uncanny naman.

hai nakuu. and according to my reliable source.... he's still continuing his vocation (daw). not sure daw xa... Itatanong nia pa daw sa mga co-students nia). wow. good for him. I hope him the best of what he can be. And I'm so so so proud of him. Nakakatawa naman... Namiss ko tuloi xa. Pero mas miss ko man ning saru dgdi... (hambug daa). Bahala ka. Sorry for the ninja punch!!!

LaBA yuu..

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07.04.09

2009-07-03T19:47:00.003+08:00

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my one and only YOU
-parokya ni edgar

It took one look
And forever laid out in front of me
One smile and I died
Only to be revived by you

There i was
Thought i had everything figured out
Goes to show just how much i know
'bout the way life plays out...

Chorus:
I take one step away
but i find myself coming back to you
My one and only, one and only THEW (hhe)...ooh...

Now i know
That i know not a thing at all
Except the fact that i am yours
And that you are mine

Ooh
They told me that this wouldn't be easy
And no
I'm not one to complain...

(Chorus 2X)

you..

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It's been 6 days naa. haha. His last email was 3days ago. haha. And I badly miss him.
I miss my one and only matthew.
hahahai...

mahirap mag send pag gabii..

2009-07-03T19:08:00.003+08:00

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maurag kuta ang promos kang SMART (network). Unlimited texting... Alltext20... Gaan Text10... etc. etc. pero anu ining nangyayari ta dae ako maka send ning message?! Narisa ko ni poon kang July 1. Pag 6oclock na, masakitooooon ng mag send. Naka Unli man kuta ko... dae man maka send ning text messages. Sabi "message sending failed". Pudpud na ang muro ko kaka ulit-ulit ning send, dae man graray. Anu man daa yan? Sana mag announce man ang SMART (TnT) kung tanu arug sa kyan. Maiintindihan man yan kang users... basta eexplain lang ninda. Badtripoon lugod si Barkada ko ta madali na na kutang mapasagot si crush nia... kaso eu ngani yan, dae na maka text... huminibi na lang. wawa man. sayang daa kadto. atang 1st gf nia man kuta. masaklapoon. linga daw yan, dahil sa unexpected delay of sending, may na broken heart! =(

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-sayang man kang effort ko...

2009-06-20T20:56:00.004+08:00

"sayang man kang effort ko..."
-BM

-06.09.09. P.E day. Ok man... so far. Punta ko NC (former school) to visit some friends... & to encounter some 'unexpected' thing. Oh anyway... I'm not guilty naman with it. Guess after that day, na indi na sya nag text... I assume we're over. I saw how pissed he was while looking on our way. Bahala na sya. I went home so tired. I slept. I woke up to find my CP 6 messages received. It's from my friends. Yung iba, di ko na nireply... I checked my mailbox & read the new email I got from BM. It says that he's free 'til 5pm. So maybe we could hang-out. He made a call to confirm it. Since ma register man kame ni Daf sa AdNU-YFC, sabi ko sa AdNu na lang. But he disagree. Sabi nya, "Sayang man kang effort ko para mag tukaw-tukaw ( sitting around)." I'm pissed. Indi ako na ka react. I don't know what to say. Natapos yung call without definite plan. So anu nga ba? Pa AdNU na ako. I don't care if he's coming or not. I don't want to expect that he's gonna do something about it. Pero I smiled when he texted me asking asan na ako... In the end, he went to AdNU... but we went out din naman kaagad. He took care for our fare and food. Nuh. It's a little awkward 'cause I'm not used of such treatment. I just go with the flow. He's presence matters most. He being there infront of me. He talking with us. He who tried to give time. Honest... indi ako makakain. haha. Not because I'm concious with it... I'm just so engulfed by him. I didn't know how I could be such moron 'til he was in sight. =D

We laughed. we giggled. We exchanged glances. We've never been so serious! & I just feel so ok! Mabe that's the way it is. Simple things are precious when shared to someone so special. naks!

P.D.
sana lang he's not reading this 'cause nakakahiya. well, maybe he wont anyway. waste of time. masasayabg abg effort nya. =D

dare4distance lyrics

2009-06-15T23:32:00.005+08:00

...
just found this song 3minutes ago.
It's not what I'm looking for
but that's what I saw
& I am captured by its lyrics.
it's so true.
it suits me. =)

dare4distance
-never shout never

I got the concept and came to the conclusion
That the top floor was just an illusion
To the fact that I go this break in my back
That I can't get out; I cant figure out how
You appeared right in front of me
Before your march down south a university
Is where you spend your daylight
But we're both just waiting for this 'friday' night

Although the distance is daring
We both know how to drive
Wo-o

Weekend make-up for the lost time that we both apologies for
I cant stand the fact that this extremity is the center of my day

I see where your coming from
We've been on the same boat since day one
I see how you like to run
Back to the things that got you here

Although the distance is daring
We both know how to drive
Wo-o

Weekend make-up for the lost time that we both apologie for
I cant stand the fact that this extremity is the center of my day

Mondays I sleep away
Tuesdays I lay awake
Wednesdays are the worst
Thursdays I reminice
Fridays I see your face
And I can breathe

______________________________________

after I played this song 2x, I thought of pasting it on the bulletin,
but when I check out the clock, it's 11:41pm.
Just 20 minutes more....
FIRST month. homebase.
well, not together. =(
he's in his school & I'm in my new school too.
If we're free, we get to see each other on Saturdays.
But if we're busy... well, better luck next Saturday.
I'm just waiting for 12AM & I'll post it on the bulletin.

well, let me give you a short background.
I never thought of us, being into this relationship.
Though I have a little crush on him.
I just met him this April 09 through friends.
& I never ever had an idea that he could be someone special in the future.
Not until that April 24 5:03pm (laugh all you want. I know I looked so stupid. Memorizing such dates.) He fin'lly told me that he likes me.
It (just) took me 22 days to say YES to him.
It's too long for me already 'cause I have this crush on him naman, so why keep it pending? ayt? I'm just being honest! =)
Well, he have those eyes I admired from someone before.
But it's not enough to like him.
& it's NOT the reason why I like him.
Days passed fast just like my feelings for him.
I never thought of this really.
But I just woke up one morning...
realizing I'm waiting for his text message all day.
I'm so out of myself, thinking of him, 43, 200X a day.
funny, I know. I'm like obsessed.
But I know I'm not. I'm just missing him.
The only time I'm not thinking of him is when I'm unconsciously sleeping.

But still, I have doubts.
I'm not sure of him taking this relationship seriously.
but I do. 11:51

"Mondays I sleep away
Tuesdays I lay awake
Wednesdays are the worst
Thursdays I reminice
Fridays I see your face
And I can breathe"

5 minutes more....

1 MINUTE....

posted!

NEW PHOTOGRAPHIC ELEMENTS

2009-06-15T19:05:00.010+08:00

NEW PHOTOS
@ CWC-Pili

these photos was taken last May 18 09 in CamSur Watersports Complex (CWC) in Pili Camarines Sur. We (daph & me) never planned to do this. We went that afternoon to bring something in Capitol (w/c is near in CWC) and since we were there already, we decide to spend some moment & breathe, so there we were! It's an awesome place, I tell you. It's cozy & tranquil there. You can feel the thrill of wake boarding, but if you think your Ego can't carry such sports, then you can just lurk around & full yourself with mesmerizing view specially in the late afternoon. Or perhaps you should try night swimming or Spa's. "Great Service" my uncle said after his massage session. Or bring your pamangkins (niece/nephew), children, grandchildren, inaanak or your girlfriend's siblings to spend their day @ Lago Del Ray. (oh, oh, oh... I just created a tagline: "Spend your day @ Lago del Ray!" naks! )But of course, to enjoy this place into it's fullest capacity, you must bring your family or friends! &&& NO-TO-VIP's. =)

ako yan. nag momoment moment...

look @ that orange sky dude! hay. ( or is it pink?! ugh! i dunno!)

Daphne for another shot.

change position. emo?! nuh. nahihiya na sya sa ginagawa namen so she hid her face!

whoa. lab this photo! look @ that great view! the mountain... perfect! hayy talaga.

this picture is something emo. hahaha. it's like someone who's gazing into a world different from hers.

Just creeping around (nakiki tambay lang yan pero parang ang angas pa. "Anuh huh?!")

it's the flower, actually.

where's darlene?! is she hiding?! =)

I looove this one! It's like someone who's taking another curve of her life... another beginning where new things are waiting.

Near Lago Del Ray. Wala lang. I like the weeds. =) (I tried to change the written credits to M.darlene, but it doesn't look good to me so I prefer link2happylife)

On macro view

This one photo below was taken @ Cagliliog Tinambac Camarines Sur (I call it dagatlandia. Sorrounded by vast seas!), my hometown! =) From Naga City, it's a 2-3hours jeepney ride. Proud to be Blonde! hihi. A friend who visited the place for vacation told me a joke that people from dagatlandia are English speakers. I was confused for they don't use English as a from of communication. I asked why and my friend said 'because people there are Blonde'. I laugh so hard for it is true that most people (not all) really have colored hair. Some says it's because of the sea shore location. And some just want to put some highlights. Oh anyway, I'm not blonde.

MON-MON in Dagatlandia

So that's it! these are my recent photos with Daphne as my model! =) She's a good model. I didn't command her for positions. She just take it naturally as if no one's taking picture. And I found them (the pictures) so clever. Maybe the pictures are in some way, well, i hate to admit, EMO, but it clutches to "NO-TO-BLOODY-EMO" which I reaLLY really super hate. But my monmon, he's so photogenic! i love it all!

Next time, Don't Come Late - theology

2009-06-15T13:39:00.002+08:00

Next time, Don't Come Late
- Theology

Tuesday night. May 12, 2009. I'm browsing something when I bump into some "zodiac" thingy. Actually, it was my friend's zodiac adn it says there na CAPRICORN: Fantastic kisser, erotic lover and some description pa na I don't remember. I laugh so hard for the use of SEXY adjectives. Well, the owner of the zodiac was pretty satistfied with the result. & because of such zodiac, nag try din ako with my zodiac, AQUARIUS. The result, never mind. Pero it says there na my lucky day is Wednesday...

Wednesday. May 13, 2009. Gising na ako @ quarter to six. Same routine. Hatid ki Sobi sa school, then puntang NCF to get my documents... to be submitted sa AdNU. LAst da of submisson. uki. Pag dating ko sa NC, close pa yung registrar. I have to wait 'til 8:30. Just fine with me. I have classes @ 9. So I lurk there chatting with some former classmates of mine. Talking about how's my new school... how does it feel to be a newbie... how's the teaching techniques of teahers. I Think I satisfy their curuiosity naman by answering their questions bit by bit. Starting with my first day with my first penalty just before I enter the college; then, I got warned of using phone inside the class; earning zero points for not submiting an assigned reseach; arriving late in theology class & lot more!

Bukas na ang registrar. & the next minute, nasa tryke na ko to AdNU.

I'm so calm pa while walking 'til I reach AR213. Amused ako, bakit ma teacher na agad? 10 minutes pa before time. I decided to enter @ the back. Just before I could reach the chair, the nearest beside the door... "And nextime, Don't come late" said the teacher while staring @ me. I'm careless. I'm not late anyway. But I started to get confused when my classmates stand up & went outside.

The reel deal:

I'm so EARLY. Early for the next subject. My class starts @ 7:30 not 9am. Ouch.

I'm busy.

2009-06-10T20:55:00.002+08:00

he. fin'lly, I'm busy. Got so many homework & need to review for surprise quizzes. So Can't update my blog often. I'll be back as soon as I'm free. I got LOTS of things to say. specially this freaky day. Wednesday. according to my zodiac, Wednesday is my lucky day. But maybe, I should stick to my NO-TO-PSYCHIC. After all what happened... I'm traumatized! So this is for now. I'm sleepy & I have to wake up @ 6AM to attend my class @ 7:30. So, bye bye for now!

my afternoon photos

2009-06-06T15:35:00.004+08:00

...

I browsed my photo albums & I found out that I haven't posted my afternoon photos in Dagatlandia. I took this picture on a sunny & calm afternoon around 3 o'clock. I took these pics while feeling so confused & tired. & sick of boredom.

HOPING FOR NOTHING

(emo? nuh.)

the sand on macro view

THE CROSS

I took this before the holy procession. wala lang. I like the view over there.

I knew in my heart it's not you... (before).

Now i know, it's really you. (I edited this one.)

Being ourselves is a crime - teens

being ourselves is a crime. (I took this after Mama had her daily homily about "how-to-act-like-maria clara". My cousin Cris texted my this phrase)

I love you, my thought U cant decode.

( I have a video version of this. & it's good.)

=)

THE HEAT

i'm not so proud of this. But it looks good to me.

guess that's all for now. I have lots of photos in my digicam but I have to edit it first. So it takes a lot of time. =)

another painful moment

2009-06-05T15:47:00.004+08:00

I was awaken by the gentle air touching my skin.
The afternoon sound of birds & plants swaying.
Guess can't escape that easy huh?
It's one those afternoons. (with whom?! nuh.. with what?!)
I'm missing those days more & more.

I can hardly breathe
each time I open my FS Account.
specially my mail.
Ask why?!
I don't want to face the reality that my inbox is EMPTY.
Am I forgotten now?
Or I WAS forgotten long time ago, I was just too blind to notice.

OUCH.

I remember that one afternoon.
Same as this.
Looking outside the window... ' a tranquil afternoon', I murmur.
Then someone passed by... my heart fell. I was picking it up when it jumped out of the window.
Yeah... Thank you!
Bloody afternoon it was!

Hai.. It's true that the farthest from you isn't the moon or stars,
but the days, passed by.
So true.
Can't go back, even if I want to.
@ this point I'm wishing that Lewis...
the inventor of time machine from Meet the Robinsons, is real!
Gonna ask him to lend me his time machine so that I could go back.

wwoosshh... wait! a incident happen. I forgot the name of Lewis, the main character from "Meet the Robinsons" so I search for it. I was looking @ the casting when... I saw his name! ouch. Ho uncanny & disturbing this is! I'm trying to conceal myself from it, halow?! I sthis fate?! Or I'm jst exaggerating..?! This is the second time this thing happened, this week. First, in m friendster IMUXIC APPS. I"m looking for the song MOMENT OF TRUTH. Along with the FM Static was again, that NAME. Golly..

click here for PROOF and click here for the other one.

See for yourself!

i'm missing him.

2009-06-04T20:18:00.004+08:00

.

yep.
I'm missing that smile.
... those eyes.
... that laugh.
... the text messages.

now, there's nothing I can rely on except of a promise.
A promise I'm not sure if firm enough to hold on to.
if ever I hold unto it, would it just smash me to the ground?

Will I ever find a way to forget him?
'Cause really, thinking of him 720x a day is a tiring habit.
And yeah, it's a habit.
can't get rid of it.
Even in my sleep. He's so punctual!
sometimes, I scratch my head
wishing that he's just a dandruff...
unfortunately, he's a certified human.

I just console myself by believing that this is written on His 'checklist'. =)
that He knows everything & sees these things & that these are just part of the molding process I must pass for me to hit the goal.

hai.
How could I possibly fall to someone who's not going to be mine but His.

.

in the wee small hours.

2009-06-03T21:55:00.002+08:00

last night.
last 7-8hours of sleep inside his dear home.

Tomorrow will be another day and another change.
He will leave his sweet life back home to live somewhere to prepare for his future.
I hope he'll gets well wherever he'll go.
God knows how clever he is and I know...
He'll protect him from any harm...
just like how God protect my family.

He's now a part of my life.
& part of what am I going to be in the near future.
He's such a dear friend that anyone would like to have.
That's why I am certain that he deserves to be one of the best people I knew.
Keep on rocking, Matthew.
=)

GLOBAL CRISIS: Its impact?

2009-06-02T22:01:00.001+08:00

..

recently, just recently... President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo, the President of the Republic of the Philippines, had her breakfast @ Mcdonalds Paseo de Roxas branch in Makati City. She ordered coffee and a "longganisa meal" and had a chat with a group of call center agents.

Not so long, US President Barrack Obama had his "fast-food invasion" too @ Five Guys Burgers and Fries @ Washington. Unlike PGMA, Obama shelled out at least $80 in cash for his order (It's Php3,760 here in Philippines). According to press-pool observers, he had sandwiches for his entourage and the crew -- a burger with ketchup and fries for Williams, a cheeseburger with jalapeno, lettuce, mustard and tomato for himself.

Maybe they decided to be "penny-wise", at least to help our falling economy?? Being thrifty. Whoa, that's what they called, 'cool'.
Think ordering from fast-food store is a good exposure, eh? Or they were just starving & please, they don't care about exposures... just food!
whatever their reason was, the crew went nuts!

Should I ask how enormous is the impact of GLOBAL crisis?!
Or should I just remain silent and watch?
Then, I can't wait to see Jalal Talabani, the current President of Iraq ordering fries & burgers too!

One thing I like about this news is that I love Mcdonalds too & No. 7 uplarge! Yehei!

image by: PHOTOBUCKET

..

charlie bit me!

2009-06-02T10:59:00.000+08:00

i lab this vid.!
it's so funny, yet touching..
better watch it!
put your headphones/speakers on!

I LAB THE ACCENT!

ouch! CHARLIE.... =)

save me! it's not benign at all!!!!

2009-06-02T10:34:00.000+08:00

...

yep.
it's getting worse!
it's getting on my dearest nerves.
wana put it off.
but it just clutch like a leech.
maybe I can use the word 'stain'.
i hate leech.
they're nasty.

oh by the way.
this is all for now.
just don't want to mess up too much.

ohh...
it's official school day tomorrow!
yeah!
I'm bored.

ride it on!

..

drive - incubus

2009-05-30T19:12:00.000+08:00

- love this song!
so inspiring!
nkaka relate ako... =)

Sometimes I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I cant help but ask myself how much
I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer
It's driven me before, it seems to have a vague
Haunting mass appeal
Lately I'm beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there

So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive, oh oh
It's driven me before, it seems to be the way
That everyone else get around
Lately, I'm beginning to find that when I drive myself, my light is found

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there

Would you choose water over wine
Hold the wheel and drive
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be ther

unfinished business...

2009-05-30T18:12:00.000+08:00

...

I'm back for some thoughts... YES! kakarating ko lang from AdNU ORSEM 09. I actually didn't attend na the closing program. Got an emergency & I felt a li'l uncomfy kanina. Ok naman ung orietation, although I'm not feeling so energized. Kahit nga now, I don't feel doing some writings. Hai... how uncanny! I'm not like this! I'm a jolly person as far as I know. Naks naman... nag momoment-moment nanaman buh ko? tagal na nito ah?! aahh, miss ko lang siguro si anuh... si Mama... si Mamama... haha. oh wait, want to share this colored paper to you, filled with messages, messages from my block mates... messages that I don't know if they really do mean or just like what I did to their papers... scribbled in and out. But but, I wrote some serious matters naman dun. Some. Atleast meron. Oh wait, here it is...

"your humble person and I hope to friends as time pass." - Luares

"your so kind... Tnx ate." (ate na pla ko ngayon... cge na nga.)

"090940523**.. No. q." - Anonymous (obvious! kanino kia 'to. Girl 'to for sure. Gonna text her later.)

"Ei, nyc meeting you, sana mabisto ta ka pa. hehe" - Tinay (nice meeting you too)

"ei sana, maging close kita.. nice meeting u =p." - Alet

"Sana maging frindz tau. nice to met u." - Clowie

"Hi, hope we'll be friends." - Ica

"Hi ate.. ingztx yagi... yem2 ir. If you need a fwend... ir lang me." - Yem2 (ate nanaman ako!)

"Alluh.. ingatx." - anonymous ('di ako nito kilala, for sure!)

"ei, gudluck na lang sato." - jhez (isa pa 'to)

"Hi teh, nice meeting u. sana maging close kta ingat!!!! =) " - dhen

"Hope maging close din tau! teyker!" - juni

"keep safe... mag aral... God bless.. " - eriane

"study hard." - anonymous

"an2tzporteen@gmail.com add nlng! friends?" - anne ( add nio rin xa! she's a pretty lass! swear!)

"a big smiley icon." - bernz (_ _ _ _ !)

"sana maging friends kita.. gudluck.." - nhet

"ei.. hope to know you better. Godbless!." - Mau

"hello gurl. sheilley is here. you can count on me as 1 of your friend. Gudluck. -05" - sheilley/sheillay

'luv yah. study well!" - clarisse

"tke cre!!!"

"hello darlene!!! nice meeting you. 4 years pa tayong magsasama. hehe. gudluck satin..' - marie

'Hi darlene! H'wag naman "kuya". I'm hoping we'll get close.' - leonard ( I called him kua kase when I ask him if he could move a seat apart.)

"Hi, it's nice & great meeting you. I hope we'll be good friends." - charlene

"Hi! Wanna know you more!" - raiza

"God bless always! =) " - anonymous ( one of the boys 'to. feeling ko ung naka stripes or yung nka cap! & for sure wala clang kagagana ganang mag sign saaking boring na papel)

"A crown with smiley icon." - can't read his name. yung seatmate ko basta 'to.

"hi. sna maging friends tao.. tnx" - almira

& xmpre ung galing sa facees namen...

"ei darlene.. good to see you here. I hope you can adjust soon. see you aroun.. god bless!" - nagj

"Hey, I hope you open up more in the future. Ayt? Good work." - FORT

So how do you picture me during ORSEM?! hai nakuuu.. totally different 'darlene" talaga! siguro ganun lang ako pag nasa new environment. I wish I cud adjust soon... like what facee Nagj said. Si facee Nagj, blogger din yan... kaso ayaw ibigay URL nia. ang mamot2 naman. juk! I understand... ayaw nang ma bulgar. haha.

hirap nga namang mag adjust. That was, what? 2 das ago when I felt so sure of m decision. Sabi ko, "eto nah... Sure na 'to!"... Tapos after ng ORSEM, habang naglalakd ako palabas ng AdNU... until makasakay ako ng tryke... until I reached downtown... my mind is in the middle of uncertainty... I keep on asking, 'til now... "Is this what I want? If yes, why am I this odd? Am I doubting my decision? mali ba yung pinili ko na pinag laban ko ng pagka tagal-tagal?" I crossed bloody ocean just to get my credentials from my old school... I run for life just to be there, in that school... just to be a student of that course... but bakeeeeeet?! why am I this gloomy. I tried to cheer kanina. Just to amplif my mood... pero talagang 'di ko feel. I just clapped na lang para 'di naman ako mag mukhang 'kj'. hai... mabe I'm just being in a hurry. things will change naman siguro pag dating ng regular classes. and besides, God has always been present whenever I call him. Perfect attendance! & I did prayed to him before... " if He wants me to be in that school, to be in that class... I'll be there." AMEN! He's gonna carry me all through out! Buti na lang. petit ako! haha. 'di sya mapapagod bitbitin ako.

So, 'til here!

ninja signing out!

...

ready to be filled up again... uDii.

2009-05-29T19:32:00.000+08:00

.

AdNU ORSEM 09
3-day ORSEM.
kanina lang ko nka attend. 2nd day.
kanina lang din aqu kna enrol.

mejo nahirapan aqu to comply with my requirements
because of some confusing processes in regards with the release of these requirements in my former school.
kia yun, I end up being temporary enrolled.
ok lang.
basta may 'ed' na ang word na enroll, ok n aqu.

nahiya aqu kanina pasok sa assigned room namen.
late na kase.
I have to introduce myself.
I did it as simple as I cud.
don't want to stand in front for a long time
... with 20 pairs of eyes watching me.
scary! I felt awkward.
As in super eyed kase sila.
nahiya aqu. =)

may essay kami ginawa.
something like:

"I see myself as...

eksena syempre yung answer ko.
aba. aba. aba. juk lang!

sabi ko...

"i see myself as a blank paper, ready to be filled up again with new scribbles, writings & thoughts."

wala lang
totoo naman yun.
I start the day empty handed.
Para laging may space for new learnings...
ooooohh.. naks!
pero di quh naman yah na- broadcast.
hiya kase.
next time na lang.
ayoko maging epal dun.

KUDOS nga pala sa two Facee namen,
Si Ms. NajG and Mr. Fortun!
Such interesting and jolly people.

Honest?! I feel intimidated.
why?!!!!!!
kase naman noh,
nagka sama-sama na cla for 1 day & a half.
tpos aqu, kaka enter lang.
May love-triangle na nga eh.
yung iba, feeling ko... may crush pa sa mga Facee namen.
haha.

Ang init nga kanina.
Pero nka sweat shirt aqu.
may sugat kase quh sa left arm.
kahiya naman 2 show it to them.

kanina, while touring around AdNU,
nag iisip na 'ko what org. to join,
NO to frats ofcourse.
for academics lang.

nag picture taking pa for ORSEM 09.
gonna get one!
Php50 for the pictures.
Gonna post it here
pag nakuha 'ko na.
yehei~!

gonna wear green daw tomorrow.
last day ng ORSEM.
yehei! favorite color ko pa naman.

ma nakilala na pla quh.
Si gretty??
tama bang spelling, I dont know.
She's cute & fair.
mejo mataas aquh kanya...
pero feeling ko she's kind.
mahahalata mo naman yun sa face & movements.

ito yung shocking!
May isa quh classmate... a He.
kala ko, sya yung crush quh sa former school quh.
kamukha nia eh.
pero mas matangkad 'tong classmate ko.
haha. pra kong 'di college ahh.
uyy.. juk!

hai, madugo ang dinaanan ko bago ko nka enroll ha.
pero ok lang.
no pain, no gain!

sign out na ko.
I'll visit my aunty pa sa bahay nila.
Na hospital xa last week, highblood.
For sure laugh trip nanaman 'to with them.
I really do have a great laugh with these relatives of mine!
so, gotta go!
wwwoooooossssshhhhh....

5-29-09 7:58PM

the pessimist

2009-05-28T21:48:00.000+08:00

I'll cross the bridge when I get there.

..

something has changed... my road. =)

2009-05-27T21:51:00.000+08:00

tomorrow, I will lead a new career...
new environment...
new life.

ops! don't be mislead.
I'm not getting married. haha.
that's not the kind of change I want.

I will enroll @ AdNU tomorrow morning.
& it means no coming back.
I won't do so.

Know why I make so much fuss about this?
because it's something I chose... all by myself!

And it means a lot to me.
Not because I'm entering the poshest school here Naga City,
but because finally, I feel so responsible with my decision...
with my career...
with my future.
& it's like,
"hey darlene, do your best! you're the one to blame!"
(no reason to blame. won't do bad.)

You know what, now I truly believe:

Doing something I don't want is what I called job or obligation.
but doing something with willingness & eagerness is what I call passion.

& that's what I have right now & the coming days.
Passion to build my future coloring it bright & colorful. =)
I swear I am happy of what I had chosen.

Of course, there's a lot of negative opinions I reconsider.
I was supposed to graduate 2 years from now.
But transferring to another school will bring me back to zero.
Not super zero actually.
But I don't mind at all.
Excuses are lies as my NSTP Instructor quoted.
If I have to double or triple my time to get back to the race... I will.
& anyway, I'm not in a hurry.
I'm too young.
& besides, this is what I picture myself... in the future.
A successful AB-Communication graduate...
Armed with knowledge & confidence...
Ready to face the another scenario of her life...
Being a PROFESSIONAL @ heart and mind.

I should be the one behind the wheel.
'Cause it's my OWN duty to drive my life the way I want it to be.
So if you'll ask where my route is...

"Manong, to success & fullfillment street po."

the show - lenka

2009-05-25T09:41:00.001+08:00

I'm a new self-confessed addict to this song.
I actually first watched this on MTV-Asia. And I'm sooooooooo amazed, hypnotized, mesmerized by this song. I found myself digesting every lyrics/words of it. My friend even laugh @ me when she noticed that I kept singing its chorus wherever we are. even in our jeepney ride. =) lol! oh oh oh..

I noticed she looked like Carmen Soo..

Quickpost this image to Myspace, Digg, Facebook, and others!

carmen soo (left) lenka (right)

the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

The Show - Lenka
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a glimpse...

2009-05-25T07:17:00.002+08:00

Hey... just came back from the beautiful place of vast seas... =)

Want to give you a glimpse of someone's diary...

I enjoyed reading it so I asked permission if I could publish an excerpt on my blog.

Fortunately the owner agreed and was pleased 'cause her thoughts will be on the world wide web. hahaha.

oh oh oh.. wait! before you read it, you must take not of these legends...

*blink- means the time I check my cell for text message.

[ ] are the thoughts that crossed my mind while writing.

I'm starting to punish myself... again. Sabi ko na. [wait nag text na sya c= ]

We're talking/texting about "what time we usually sleep". haha. yah right.

Para kaming mga 12 years old. [disadvantage of unlimited].

I've been trying so hard not to believe him, ok not so hard but I've been trying.

[Um, baka nag text na? ai dae pah. ] And that's something na ah.

I keep saying to myself *blink that it's all lies *blink... He's *blink joking.

He's just having a good time... *blink yet, I want to believe him. *blink *blink again.... hahahaha.

And 'di kasi nila alam [who are they??] *blink mahirap din xa sa part ko....

para akong kumakapa sa dilim [naks! panitikan nanaman] *blink

Looking for nothing...

hoping for nothing... *blink *blink (words are censored on this part)

Nagkakasala na ani ko bcuz of hijm. Lagot ako ki mother & father if they learn na inlove naman ang 'perfect' child ninda.

[inlove man lang. Priority ko pa din sila & my career ofcourse].

And for sure, mapapagalitan ako.. =( Kia nag dba, I was trying not to fall... *blink

[may nag text na. it's Criz quoting bout she loves sleeping... 'cause it's her only escape from the pain she can't bear when she's awake =( .

Emo?! yah & duh. NO TO EMO] *blink *blink again.

Spare me... really! swear...

I'm praying na sana he's serious... cuz if not, makaka compose rin ako ng emo quotaion.

*blink [meron na ulet!] He's in telling me that he end up thinking about somone cuz he can't sleep.

*blink actually, i'm the one who texted him with " I hate it when I can't sleep & I'm starting to miss someone and I end up laughing @ my self

then *blink he replied that "parang ganun daw sya last night" *blink

I replied "you laugh din?! I did! haha". Duh. I'm so childish! *blink

[malolobat na ko and I wanna ask sana "really?! & huz the one you're thinking of?" kaso... ang pangit naman nun. *blink parang gets ko naman na yun, deny pa ko. haha *blink. So So, I think he's just flirting. *blink but I ma hoping na sana hindi... =( *blink. [tagal ng repaly ah?! gosh]

*blink *blink *blink hahaha.. Laughing trip 'to... ggrr.

I really don't want to believe him but my heart says yes. [oooha... ooooha...]

wat can I do?! [maghugas ka. mag laba ka. maglinig.]

Dba sabi nila [who?!] love & happiness is a gamble?

U have to make sugal for you to know if you'll [todoinkssssss!!!

he missed me daw last night. What a flirt dude! pero kilig....]

But what if he's just flirting?!

ummmm... how can he miss someone he hardly knew?!

wait... dba, I miss him. oh? how can I miss someone I hardly knew?! wonderful question...

any other?! gonna be happy or what? U won't know unless you try.

Sabi ko na lang sa sarili ko, I'll just live the way I want my life to be...

I'll just go wioth the flow and act if necessary. Wherever it takes me, I'll make the most of it and be happy.

Life is all about happiness ryt?. I still believe that if something is meant for you, then it will be yours.

GOD will find a way... if not, if you want it but you didn't have it then, thank you... 'cause at least 'those things' passed by. ryt?!

IF it's meant for you... then it's yours. If not, thanks anyway!

credits to "THE NOTEY DIARY"
graphics/photos by PHOTOBUCKET

message failed.

2009-05-10T20:39:00.000+08:00

gosh. that's all I can say. Super gosh pala. Super many nangyari & I have to tell you those things. Or else, I'll explode! haha. Joke. Sorry, got no one to talk to here... so I'll just turn to you na lang. Let me begin with I got a new book, entitled "three weeks in Paris" author, Barbara Taylor Bradford. This is my second book about living in Paris. The first one is "Weekend in Paris"... (nice. it's all about weeks.haha) well, I bought this in BookSale @ SM-Naga with a friend. =) It took us 1 hour and a half to find a 'good' book @ National Bookstore. But can't find one that suits my taste so we decided to go off. We're supposed to stroll nalang sana, I never thought that there's a BookSale store there, so when I saw it, It really made me happy. I love Booksale, you see. Good books, affordable ones. NBS has good books too actually, but it just didn't catched my sense. I just grabbed this book from a corner & When I saw the word "Paris", I purchased it emmediately. Time is running out & my friend needed to go home. And speaking of that friend... umm, I found that 'person' so nice. what I like most about that 'person' is the way he laughs even my jokes isn't that reasonable enough to laugh at. & that 'person' really, really, really, makes me smile even on my worsiest mood. Got this incident, we're buying something kanina when a music filled the air. And that song was my shoutout on my friendster account. it says " I used to know her brother, but I never knew I love her 'til the day she laid her eyes on me." Bnt I rephrase it to " I used to know 'a' brother, but I never knew I love 'him', til the day 'he' laid his eyes on me." =) We're actually singing the song kanina while choosing between C2 or Water. hahahahaha!! Another incident was when he touched my hand & asked me why it is cold... I laugh, I said... "naka super aircon kya 'tong mall!" hahahhha.. Wat'a rational answer! (umm.. kilig) The truth is, we're not into relationship. Although I like him & he's courting me, still I think being committed isn't on my plans. I'm not even sure if he 'really' likes me. Although he says naman that he is, can't help to have doubts. Not to mention that we are NOT allowed to have boyfriends not until we got our dimplomas na. I understand why my parents forbid me from having boyfriend. It's because, I might end up having baby @ an early age w/o any degree. They want our future to be secured. I truly appreciate that. Having such thoughtful family. But see, I am a girl filled with high dreams & expectations. I wont go for something 'ordinary'. I want to be 'someone' with 'something special.' I won't draw into something if it will give me 'unwanted responsibility'. I am too young, I believe. I'm not ready for such huge & for-life task. I got lots of 'beautiful plans' ahead that I have to fulfill for me to be contented and happy. The problem is, my parents used to treat me as just-like-the-other-teens-out-there... and that's their big mistake. I'm not like those kids. I know my limitations and I know how to 'implement' it. And that's somthing they must be aware of. I love my parents, I reall do. I love my whole family. And swear... they are my first priority along with God. I won't be here, I won't be struggling everyday to learn from school to graduate if my family isn't there... if there's no proud parents for me. You see, I can't bear to disappoint my fellas. And by the way, my family is enough for my worries... don't want to add up a new member! not now. I believe that there's a right time for that & now or later or the next day or month or year or decade isn't the right time. Today, it is right for aiming to goal the point of success. =) I wish, I could say this to my beloved & worried parents. hahaha! Guess, I can't. There's nothing more terrifying than their lifetime liturgies. life. But I salute to my parents (sometimes) supportive, Mama and Papa, my (super) protective grandparents, Mama Tess & Daddy & my Lola & Lolo who never failed to let us feel we are loved & to my uncles & aunties who never hesitated to help & give... Thank you! Though I can't express it through words, you can feel it in m actions that I love you all 'equally' and I if I am given the chance to be born again, I want you guys to be the same family i will have & live with. by the way, I want to greet every mothers and mothers @ heart a happy mothers day! it's their day today.

there's nothing more noble than our mothers love. & we can give it back to them by making them proud of what we achieve. =)

difficulties and confusion.

2009-05-07T16:25:00.000+08:00

Im confused. Really... so confused. And right now, although I don't believe in such, I would prefer to use a crystal ball or fortune-teller cards than to guess what's going on... what's happening to me?! It was what? five days ago when I told myself over and over again that I must stop myself before its too late. I still remember how I tucked it in my mind the words "...darlene, this is such a wrong thing to do. You'll be hurt for sure. What?! 2-3 weeks from now, you'll cry and you'll just lurk in the corner to pity yourself." I heard myself saying... "No. Not now. Not now that I am happy. Not now that I am not ready." But everything has been said but nothing was understood. I didn't listen.

True: One cannot convince herself of a thing, when you know that it is not what you want to happen.

uhmm? wat'a quotation. I made that. But that's true. That's how I feel all these days. I heard this song and before, I can't relate to it... but now, haha. find it soooo true:

Foolish Heart - Nina

I need a love that grows

I don’t want it unless I know

But with each passin hour

Someone, somehow

Will be there, ready to share

I need a love that’s strong

I’m so tired of being alone

But will my lonely heart

Play the part

Of the fool again, before I begin

Foolish heart, hear me calling

Stop before you start falling

Foolish heart, heed my warning

You’ve been wrong before

Don’t be wrong anymore

I’m feelin that feelin again

I’ve been playin a game I can’t win

Love’s knockin on the door

Of my heart once more

Think I’ll let him in

Before I begin

Foolish heart, hear me calling

Stop before, you start falling

Foolish heart, heed my warning

You’ve been wrong before

Don’t be wrong anymore

Foolish heart

Foolish, foolish heart

You’ve been wrong before

Foolish heart, hear me calling

Stop before you start falling

Foolish heart, heed my warning

You’ve been wrong before

Don’t be wrong anymore

Foolish heart

Oh foolish

foolish heart

You’ve been wrong before

Foolish

foolish heart

Foolish heart

I like him. So much, indeed. But I just can't draw unto something when I am truly clueless of what's gonna happen next.

sudden hardships.

2009-05-07T15:33:00.001+08:00

It's been awhile. It's been a long boring days of my life. And I've been trying to figure out how could this 'nothing-to-do-days' brought me hardships. It's amazing how I wake up each morning and breathe every second of the day with only one thought in my head. And that is him. And I want to end my misery as soon as possible. Funny, I thought everythings fine with me. But right now, as I keep on typing here... I fell like there's something missing... something that makes me feel this odd... I even ask me self? Am I really happy? or I'm just pretending to be one?

hahai.. chikka. chikka. chikka

2009-04-23T13:06:00.000+08:00

madami pero next time na lang.. (;

Weekend in Paris (novel) - Review

2009-04-15T13:04:00.000+08:00

Weekend in Paris is a must read novel. It is a true blockbuster! For me, it is the search for happiness, for fulfillment and for self-worth. And it implies that

one's happiness is not in the hand of other people but in our own.

If we want to feel and attain the peak of our fulfillment we must choose between things; things that we thought will help us to find our own self without relying on others, things that could give us long term contentment and things that is not that so sure of what will happen after you chose it. It's a little bit difficult because you want all those things but it won't be that complicated if you're wise enough to decide and stand for what you think will give you the chance to know the real you without being dependent to someone. We must not center our life with a certain person/thing. W e must explore new possibilities and learn. And of course that means we need to leave something behind (even that thing/person matters to us) to face something new... A sacrifice, yes. The story also denote that for us to be happy and contented we must not let other people run our lives. We must stand for what we think is right and be responsible for our actions. We must not stick to something that never makes us blissful. We don't deserve it if we know that we are more than that. What I like most in this story is the toleration of breaking-free or freedom. After the hard working days, we must play and relax. Live life like a careless kid even just for a little while. Life must be all about being free, contented, happy and gathered up.

compliments to Gigi Levangie Grazer, for coming up with this splendid posh novel.

sudden thought

2009-04-14T21:22:00.000+08:00

weird weird weird... really weird. Things just go into different ways without a li'l notice. funny. that's why I love this life cause it's full of posh surprises! And those surprises really shocked me. But, but but, some people hate surprises because it's awful to be surprised, really, for them. I remember once when a friend told me weeks before her birthday, "Hey, don't give any surprise. I'll kill you." "Then I'll give you a handcuff then," I replied. haha. Some people hate surprises 'cause they dunno what could be their precious reaction. But me, I don't mind about that super reaction. What's nice about surprises is that it puts you into different state of feelings. It gives thrill to your life and It gives you the chance to experience something different that you won't feel often times in your life. Someone said, Life is full of surprises, so expect the unexpected! ;)

a lonely day

2009-04-14T17:09:00.000+08:00

Wat'a lonely day it is. Super bored and super sad. Just don't know what to think and do. I woke up this morning having hard time to breathe (my asthma, i guess) and a little pain in my chest. I looked for my medicine and felt alright after I took it. I wanted to sleep again but can't breathe normally while lying in bed. So I just sat down. I felt so low and lazy and tired, but I have to cook some meal and have my clothes cleaned. So I just forced my self to do those things, anyway it's not that tiring to do. I have to take a bath 2x to booze my energy and I decided to update my blog. Yesterday I went downtown with Mom to have something fix. After we ate @ McDonald's, I asked Mama if I could stroll somewhere to have some moment.Then a friend texted me if I could meet him somewhere. He wants to hang around and asking me for company. I just don't like the idea of hanging around that day with a buddy (basically, I just want to lurk alone) but can't text him back saying I can't go. So I had a scheme. I know the RTW store where his ex-girlfriend works (summer job). And as far as I remember he told me that he misses that ex-girlfriend of his but can't meet her 'cause he felt reluctant to do so. So I replied him with "uki. let's visit Gi @ her workplace. I'm on my way". He agreed immediately. He's annoyed not tracing my shadow on that RTW Store. The truth was I never went there. I just set him up. He was texting me like "where are you? are you coming here or not?" as if he didn't want the scene. hahaha. " Go, talk to her. U missed her right?", I replied . I was eating and laughing while watching him go ( I was in a fastfood where the walls were glass ones, I mean see-through which is near the RTW store). He's asking me to meet them there but I can't. I won't leave my precious meal just because he's being another dummy again. He told me he's mad. I told him thats what he wants in the first place, and he must thank me for doing it giving him the chance to see his ex without making him look too desperate and don't act as if he's a victim 'cause I am doing him a favor. He told me that I am so mean. Which I know I am not. I'm just want to lend him a hand. I know how he loves his ex, until now. And I know that he really misses her. I found the situation so funny. That I really laugh so hard that the people looked around me. hahaha. He's such a baby. An inlove baby, indeed haha. IDK if what I did was right or wrong. And I don't care. I have important things to think of. And besides, that was just part of my plaful mind. So to him, you you you.. bow down to me boy, you owe me that thing! hahaha. don't be such pretender.. i know you like the set-up thingy! haha. that's really funny!

wee hours 04.13.09

2009-04-14T00:33:00.000+08:00

gonna sleep!
nytie nyt.

nothing to sa.
just want to update!

nice reading!
tnxx

termination date

2009-04-01T20:59:00.000+08:00

"termination date"

hai... 2 days are almost over. 2 nights was spent again, so fast.

iba talaga when you're here sa city. super speedy ang oras.

&& tomorrow uuwi nanaman kame sa bukirin. hihi.

tapos na ang purpose of going back here sa ciudad.

but i think I'll be back here soon for my enrollment sa new school ko. =)

speaking of new school. I decided to go for ateneo de naga to pursue AB Journalism.

I think it will be a wonderful & productive 4 years for me.

How I wish I could pull na the oras para june na ulet!

So I can go to school na. Para busy na. hahahai..

But xmpre, I have to wait.

But I will wait with sense.

Dahil nagpapahinga pa ang bulsa ni Parents,

'di mag papahinga ang aking desire to read & enhance my vocabulary.

naks! mukang studious... ('di naman)

kya, when Mama Tess told me kanina that she will buy me someting I want,

pumunta agad ako sa book section to buy new books.

sobrang dilemma mag search sa sobrang daming worthy books.

I wish I could but them all!

But of course... I'm not rich to buy it all of a sudden noh.

So I came up with this two books

which is very cheap naman compare to other books there.

first is this book entitled RESCUE ME, author: Gigi Levangie Grazer.

I chose this book because of the cover. hihi.

and bcuz of it's title.

ang babaw ko but it's true.

the cover and the title speaks for itself naman.

the second is a novel entitled WEEKEND IN PARIS. by ROBYN Sisman.

Mama was in a hurry na,

so when i saw the word 'Paris', i just grabbed it from the bookstand haha.

that's how I love paris.

If I want to go there, I must have an imagined snap shot na of it dba?!

haha.

so that was it.

aalis na kame tomorrow but mai baon ako! hihi.

so many na kong gagawin.

guitar, books, photos! hahahaii.. can't wait to start!

ikaw? what's your schedule this summer?

make sure that it is something worthwhile!

every second is an opportunity to learn so why waste?

so pnu na yan?

have to go nah..

see yah soon. =)

oh... btw. I promised from my old site na mag e-story tell ako

bout what I read.

Kaso I think I have to get that promise back.

Sorry! kase naman, I think it would be unfair sa mga authors.

If saabihin ko na yung kwento, bka d na kau bumili nung book.

I'll write a review na lang.. =)

Sorry again.. =)

thanks sa PHOTOBUCKET, my image hoster.

back in the city

2009-04-01T14:16:00.000+08:00

last week, umuwi kame sa tinambac.

vacation eh. since walang pasok, wala ding allowance.

kya need umuwi para wag magutom. hihi ^_^

yah, vacation is such a boring season of all seasons.

hindi busy.

you can do anything you want til you get bored.

thank goodness for some special occasions happened.

nagiging makabuluhan pa rin ang summer.

but of course dko naman hahayaan na ganun na lang yun.

sayang naman ng mga days if i'll just lurk around and snore forever dba?

last March 28, graduation rites ng school where my Mama works.

we (me & ate) helped decorating the stage. oohh dba?

although wala naman akong masyadong natulong kse all I did was picture taking.

for my blog kase. haha.

well, it all ended well.

CONGRATULATIONS PALA SA BATCH 2009!

specially with NCF's 2009 Graduates.. (madami-daming alumnus din 'to)

and to NCF's CRIMINOLOGY Students...

mga seatmates ko sa Environmental Science under MS. Adith Aguillon:

Ochoa, Daniel
Estallo, Jasper
Frondozo,
and sa lahat ng classmates ko sa Envi.

" pacnxa na, dko maalala lahat ng names nio.

but anyways... congratulations... homebase na kamo!

I'm so proud of you guys! Mga relax-relax lang pero mga astig palan!

naks naman... took the review seriously para makapasa sa board.

if not, security guard bagsak nio. juk!

anyways, do it all with God's blessing.

'So much for that' accdg. to Ochoa. hihi " =)

& to Mr. Ego... thank you for the 'unique' vocabulary you shared to us.

You're so nice to disseminate it to us na hindi nkaka alam.

Sana someday, mag publish ka ng sarili mong grammar book.

I'll buy one! joke joke joke.

ang EGO mo nanaman jn bka natamaan ko nanaman.

Mag ilag kana lang. haha.

& xmpz... para sa classmate ko sa World Literature under Mrs. Nabong!

na kakatext lang sako now na ma jam daa kame. hihi. (dae pa ko nkaka reply)

si IDOL.. haha

Christian Bausa.

goodluck..

I know ma aachieve mo tong "girl with a laptop"

hahahahaha!!

maka missun ka ai.. =)

oh well, mailingan paman tau.. =)

gusto kong mailing ang "favorite shoes mo" sa future. hahahah!!!

MAKE US PROUD!!

so back to my kwento...

to make my vacation more busier...

I am doing some guitar lessons by myself.

Aside from that I do picture taking if there's a beautiful sighting. hihi

(dami ko na ngang close up eh. joke!)

I have some afternoon pictures @ home. Such a striking view as the

sky turns orange in color. I loved it..

here's the photos!

feel free to view!

sunset1

sunset2

sunset3

flower1

sunset4

sunset5

flower background

and ofcourse... my favored photo as of now...
super like ko 'to.
the girl is my older sister, Mefedonna.
she said her legs looks good daw pla after this shot.

for bigger photos, check out my friendster account.

thank you to PHOTOBUCKET, my image hoster.

idol's birthday!

2009-03-25T07:28:00.000+08:00

happy birthday IDOL...

apee graduation! sa wakas homebase na teo.. hihi.
tpos na ang happiness, miseries and persistence sa college life...

yaun kna sa part na "new direction again" (menopausal part. juk)

uya na ang new road for you to take.

and as you go on that road, need mo ng bayaan si dating road kung saen ka nag travel (using your airplane. hihi and with the girl with a laptop. hihi) for almost five years (wow, feeling close ako. hihi).

and sana... sana... as you leave this road where you met us (met me hihi)

sana you know how to look back and sana when you had the chance to look back,

sana bistado mo pa kame. udiiman..

inshort, dae ka malingaw samu. hhii^_^

lalo na ki Samantha tz ki Bonny!

Lalo naman duman sa narrator! yehei! haha..

eu man lang daa plan yan, nag pra english pa. hihi^_^

seriously speaking...

salute ako 2u Idol!

Idol nga kita.. haha

Poon plang sa world literature...

haha. sana klasmeyt tka ulit.

haha. juk! balikbayan ka kian... haha

yehey! twenty years old na xa..

(mano po, idol. hihi)

good luck sa new age moh..

aram ko, ma aachieve mo ang mga dreams mo.

nag popoon ka plang kia dae mo muna tupadun itong...

"girl with a laptop". hihi

tama na muna yang "toga & dimploma" mo.

dae ka muna mag gibo ning trophy using the "girl with a laptop". hahahaha

hay, anu na daw kita after 5 years.. dpat mag irilingan pa kita kyan.

miss kna kian ni bonnie tz ni sam tz ni narrator yehii..

so pnu ba yan, till here nlng..

P.S.

- mag comment sa friendster ko eu?!
-e-featured mo man daw q. hihi. kulang pa man bga c featured mo, ako nlng. hihi. juk! super juk!
-aram ko tampururut ka. Basta pag pde ako mag attend sa graduation mo, ma attend ako.
-u know naman aq, dapat gbos legal ( kia dae mo q pde ikulong, haha).
-pag tig tugutan talaga ko, maiiling mo nlng ko duman.
-tz sa bday mo saaga... happy birthday in advance!
-again, sori... dae nanaman ko ma attend.

ingat pirmi...

goodluck sa board!

mag serious sa review para maka pasa!

pag police kna, dae mo q tagupun ni maam nabong. hihi.

geh ingat ingat!

mamimiss ko kamu soooooobra!

-darlene...

Occurrence To Eog

2009-03-22T11:39:00.000+08:00

just recently, umuwi kami ng Cagliliog (our hometown in Tinambac) for fiesta. And along the way of coming home and going back, sobrang daming nangyari which I considered unpleasant ones.

So let me start with going there. Unfortunately, it was exam week (16-18) that time so we planned to be there by 18 after the final examination (18-19). My cousin sobi and I was left here in Naga while Mom went home a day before 18. So that night of 17th, we were preparing na our need-to-bring things when someone knocked on the door, it was my sister & her friend.We decided then to leave by noon after Sobi's class . It was all well that day, I woke up @ 5:30 to ready my cousin to school and pumunta din ako sa school ko that day to have my clearance signed. By 12 o'clock, we're on our way to home. Nasa tryke na kame that time and I was thinking if Sobi brouhgt water along with him (he easily get hungry, that's why he needs food while on a ride) When I remember that I forgot to bring the bread na pinabili sakin ni Mama before she left. Kasama dun yung mayonnaise! Syempre, I emmediately said "KUya, para!" I went back home to get the bread. And sabi ko sa ate ko na, hintayin ako sa terminal cause dapat sabay-sabay kaming umalis. When I was on my way na to the terminal, ma nag text sakin which is my cousin telling me that mauuna daw sila, sumunod na lang ako. I went mad ofcourse! But then she texted me again, saying that hinihintay daw ako nung jeep na sinaksakyan nila. So that was it. nakahabol pa din naman ako. But syempre, it was like nakakahiya sa ibnag passengers. Then sabi sakin ni Criz, "parang iiyak na si Sobi kanina nung aalis na kmi tpos wala kpa." So ok na. After 3hours straight of byahe, na -reach din namin yung place & tell you, I grew up there! It's a beautiful mini-baranggay.Feel na Feel dun ang fiesta.. Sobrang dami ng tao kse. May mga phamplets, banners tpos colorful talaga. Kumain kami ng crab and steamed fish... sarap! brutal na ung pagkain namin kse we're so gutom na talaga. When we got in there, yung first task is to make buko salad. The problem is yung buko, naiwan sa jeep! So we have to look for the jeepney sa terminal to get the buko. So that was it. Habang ginagawa namin yung buko, nag usap2 kami to have swimming (dagat lang naman po ang nakapaligid dun and mind you, maganda ang beach dun! pramis!) We all agreed then. Kaso yun, di ako nakasama kse yung mga cousins and kapatid ko, wlang magbabantay. Kase po, yung mga maid, ayun... nag sipag lakwatsa din. hay. I was so mad talaga kse prang wala silang care. duh! By the time na bumalik yung mga maid, sumunod ako sa dagat, pero 'di na ko naka sunod kase they're going home naaaaaa!! i missed the fun ofcourse... eto pa, they went to the sayawan, and again, di ako nakasama kase my knee hurts (again). ganda nuh?! so I just stayed @ home doing my part time job, "tga taste ng mga lutong putahe". hahaha. Pero naka habol pa din naman ako when my Mom told me to get my younger sister na nandun cause it's already 2 oclock. So I went there to get her nga with cousin Criz. And yes, she insisted to stay for another 30 minutes. So ok, naghintay ako ng 30 minutes which turned out to be 1hour. And sa paghihintay na yun, two guys invited mo to dance with them, separately ofcourse. But syempre, It was so awkward not to metion that I'm just wearing pantulog that time. I don't mean naman to wear something posh, pero my attire doesn't siut the occasion. And besides ayuko naman talaga to go there and dance with them. So I refused. After a while a guy, who happened to be my crush when I was a "kid" came to me again to ask the same thing, I said No ofcourse. Then he said that he's so malas daw. Whew! Dapat talaga pala di ako sumama sayo. haha. isip ko lang. Then I pointed out my ate who was dancing that time (he was her ex-bf) and said, "yun na lng invite mo oh." he said, 'ok. if ayaw mo." After that, I forced my younger sister to go home with me since it's 4 Am!

Morning.... I mean, wake up time. My ate, our cousin criz and Grace, our friend was having a chikka in bed. I heard my ate said that "Hey know what, yung Ex ko, hinanap daw ako sainyo (referring to me and Criz)" Wow! ang kapal naman ng lalaking yun! Sabi ko " NOpe kia, he invited me to dance but I refused. He won't get rid of me so I pointed you out to ask you to dance with him." Duh. He's soooooo duh tlaga.. Making stories pa. He looked like an idot tuloy!

to be continued... (My wrist hurts na and my knee hurts again... )

Kudos to NCF-Tigers

2009-03-22T11:05:00.000+08:00

Just recently, Reg'l PRISAA was held here in Naga City. Super dami ng mga delegates na dumating from other provinces. Events was held in different corners of Naga City. Fortunately, some of the events such as Sepak Takraw game, our national sport and Taekwondo was held in our school. NCF dominated in the events of Takraw, Badminton, Athletics and Taekwondo (one of the jins is my friend, Allan). Not to mention the 33 gold, 12 silver and 3 bronze that was gathered by varsitanians I can really say that our NCF-Tigers were one of the best teams in Bicol Region.

This coming NAT'l PRISAA on April will be held here in Naga City, the NCF-Tigers will represent the Bicol Region! How awesome is that?!

KUDOS TO OUR TIGERS and to their respective Coaches!

KEEP GROWLING!

credits:
THE NAGA COLLEGIAN NEWSLETTER

For Indira Daphne Arevalo

2009-03-12T17:43:00.000+08:00

IT'S DAPHNE'S BIRTHDAY!!!

way back into looooooove..

cora

yan ang FAVORITE tagline namin. hihi^_^
nood kya kme kadto ning movie entitled
MUSIC and LYRICS (favorite namin yan!)
tpos ang favorite part namin dun is yung
ne-revived ni Cora yung song into steamy & sticky. haha
tpos yan yung intro nya..
if na watch nyo yun...
alam niu ung part na yan.. hihi^_^

anyways... let's pay attention to the celebrant!
si Daph kse... (pag dae ko ni pinakaray, saaga nasa dyaryo na ko!)
honest... si Daph ay isang girlalu.. hihi.
a very kind and funny girlash..
kia nga trip ko syang friend ta super funny sya, (like me!)

friends na kami since childhood (memories)
trip mi kadto magsakat ning balimbing! hahaha!
tapos mag step-no. haha talaga!
tapos mag iwal! hahaha!
paraiwal kami kadto. (take note, KADTO)
nag bago na kame..

serial killers na kame ngonian..
hahaha.. nag lala daa.

pero ang totoo
maboot kame... (pag may bulong.. haha juk!)

so serious nah...
maboot yan si daphne...
Pag kaiba mo yan, maung dull moments.
laftrip mode pirmi pag jamming kame..
maski kami lang duwa...
ulay2 kami kyan...
about ki...

JIMBOY... haha!
Emman...
ki uhmmm.. Allen (kadtong mga panahon! haha)
tpos ki
BIG BROTHER angd little brother. hahaha!!
(lahat lalaki... haha!)

pero nag uulay man kme kyan ni daph ning ibang bagay.
arog kang FHM. hahaha! juk! (deny)

pero ang pinaka gusto ming pag ulayan itong about sa
LIFE... pnu nagkaugwa ning life ang tao... kung saen hali nag tao... lalo na kung pnu nabuo ang tao.. hahaha! super juk!

So may storya ako about ki daph...
sarong kauruudtuhing aldaw, mainitun take note!
naglalakaw kami pauli saenda kang biglang ma mag aging "car"
as in car... kotse... wheels... awto! hahaha
biglang nagkurahaw ang babae...

"KOtse ni Jimboy!" sabay dalagan... Ay ta eu, hinabol si kotse!
Di ako man na kapay, habong mawalat ay ta duminalagan man! hahahah!
sabi ko man "Daph, halat! masain ka?!"
Cgru, sabi kadto ni Jimboy... "Oh may nakawan gaud na nagyayari. Snatch I mean!)
hahahah! D uto na si "car" hahahaha! kami, nag hihingal hingal.. hahaha!
die-hard fan kaya ni si Dap ni batista-lool alike. wahaha! (suba mo man kang muscles ito!)

Uya pa... ibang storya naman ni...
kadtong mga aki pa kame.
may nakua akong surat kaiyan. hahahahaha!
duman sa may pasiring sa school ko nakua, gurusut na.
pero kahit ganun na sya, nakita ko pa rin ang nilalaman niyon...
hahahaha
ang nakasulat ay....

Dear Allen,

________________________________________
________________________________________
________________________________________

Love, Daphne.

hahahaha!! deny deny pa nag hanep.. may ibedensya man!
pero sabi nya kadto paman daa to.
uya pa ang magaun, Adik man lang si Allen. hahahahahahaha!!!
hikig mo sa mga wild made!
pero dae ka, hali man daa to DATI si Allen sa BOYSCOUT SCHOOL.
pero after few months, nag uli!
dae kya ang susug ning konsensya.. hahah!

Ugwa pah...
Dahil mag "city gurls" na kame.. hahaha
Dae kami nag papara duman sa baylehan during fiesta...
Kang last last year, nka isip man kami mag duman.
Kaso ang prob. nag uuran. hahahahahaha!
kya e2, dae na lang kame nag dagos.
nag uli na lang kami sa harong tpos nagkakan ning salad. hahahaha!
makanusun ang experience! hahaha!

So pipira lang yan sa mga pinag daan mi ni Dap together! hahaha!
and sa mga panahon na yan... puro kaugmahan..
and ngonian na bday nia...
saru na ni sa mga tribute ko saiya.. haha ( gru sa gadan juk!)

so pra sa creative, intelligent and full of spirit and dreams na girlalu na ni...

blow your candle!

dae mag bago!
dakula na yan... tama na yan... hahahah!
juk juk...
dae kna mag pra pa dakula ta dae kna kyan makakaagom...
goodluck sa relationship nindo ni Jimboy.. haha (asa!)
mayaman ka na. Lola mo na ang ma kagsadiri kang UNC. hahaha
masakay kna man duman sa yate nindang naka display sa atubangan kang mansion ninda. hahaha!
(libre ang mangarap!)
pero dae mo i-give up ang dream mo to be a STEWARDESS
maski dae ka man qualified, susuportahan tka.. juk!
sana ngonian na fiesta maka bayle na kita! hahaha!

so iu yan..
happy birthday again...
and be good!
lub you lub ou..
muuahhhh...

P.S

ang dae ko nalilingawan na sabi kni sakong girlash nani....

aanuhon mo man ang ****..
kung ugwa man lang muro..

bwhahahahahaha!!!!!

PEACE OUT Daph!

my happy moments today 03.10.09 3:43PM

2009-03-10T15:42:00.000+08:00

I remember Santino said that "Dapat bilangin natin yung magagandang nangyayari, 'wag yung masama". I heard this phrase before, many times already. I even utter this to myself before for comfort. But I dunno why it has more impact when a kid says it. I would like to say Congratulations to Kapamilya Channel (i'm not kapamilya or kapuso, I prefer NatGeo or MTV) for coming up with this teleserye May Bukas Pa which is suitable for any age. There's an incident happened with m seven year old cousin Sobi (the only muslim in the family) who suddenly asked Moma one night to wake him up at 9pm because he's going to hug Bro. (Jesus). He knew that he's a muslim and he's aware of the difference between the two. Sometimes nga he doesn't eat pork (unless it's Adobo). Sabi nya, "I won't eat pork kase magagalit si Papa". hehe. How funny. Anyway, as i said a while ago, I congratulate Abs for having this kind of show on thier station. I am really amazed with the kid who's playing the role of Santino. He's a real wonder.

So go back to the counting of merits, I am going to count it now. hehe. I hate math but I love counting!

To top the list... My CS (computer studies) classmates (Liberal arts ako) are so funny talaga. It's good talaga to be sorrounded by funny and happy people, i found myself so happy and carefree after the sessions of laughing with them. Laughter is the only priceless gift anyone can have. Im thankful for I received many today! hehe.

Another reason is that I had m project for finals done! That means I have more time now for other requirements. Yehey!

And another reason to be happy... I ate Goya today! So sweet.. love goya!

And another reason to be happy is I have something to write on my blog! Horray!

Ooh, it's election day tomorrow. Candidate for secretary, yours truly. hehe. Naks! The funny thing is there's one party lang which is US, meaning no rivalry at all. But we still need 50% votes to be proclaimed as the new set of officers. Elections inside the school is a practice field already for students who will vote soon for the change of our nation.

I just received a message from Christian, a friend of mine in and outside the school. His message says that:

"When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back. Your time is our life. That's why the greatest gift to someone is your time. Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do but how much we give ourselves. God is good all the TIME. (naks)"

I agree with it. when you give your time to someone, it means giving that someone a portion of your life. Me, if someones making time just to help or meet me, I really appreciate it. Even if it is just his/her spare time or vacant period, still I thank them for spending it with me of all the people they knew. And I also agree that the essence of love is how much you give YOURSELF ( i mean the attetion, not the body). Cause that's love, you have to give and receive attention from both parties... if not, it will be one sided love and it's not healthy at all! (exeperienced?! yeah.. haha. not with boyfriend-boyfriend thingy but with peers/friends). And I really really agree that God is good ALL the time. I won't defend Him anymore for HE speaks for Himself. Maybe there are times when we think God's not giving what we ask from Him, inspote the fact of what He said: "Ask and thou shall receive". Though this may sound a cliche but, I believe that there's always a reason for anything that happened... that we are the one who chooses what we are going to be or have in the future. So I believe therefore that once we ask something to God, he didn't give it emmediately. He give some sort of test first if we are deserving or ready to have it or if we really NEED it to have it. And by those tests he gives, we learn. God never give what you ask as soon as you beg for it because he's God, not a genie. And God wants us to LEARN and LIVE that learning.

whew! i've said many things na pala. hehe. I'm gonna leave you with a question lang...

so what if one day, an angel comes down and inform us na "God will grant ONE wish from you... anything. so wish now! just one." what will wish?! yung totoo ha! don't be so plastik! you can answer on my comment box on the right. i'm gonna wait! =)

be happy! smile! =)

A Great Video from Youtube

2009-03-09T10:53:00.000+08:00

just yesterday, I was browsing Youtube for Pooh-kyaw videos.
I dunno, but it is my hobby already watching funny clips of Pooh-kyaw, Chocoleit, Vice Ganda, Pokwang . haha. I laugh so hard talaga everytime I watch them. And that's one of the my regimens. Practice it too and you'll be frown-free all day long!
If I have the chance na, I'll go wowowee or laugh line or comedy bar where they work. I'm gonna watch them!
I love the "boyfriend story" of Pooh! haha. (click it to watch)

So that was it, I was browsing when I accidentally viewed and watched this video
and it feels so great.
Hihi^_^
better watch it too!

video by Youtube.com

finally!

2009-03-09T09:57:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!!!

I'm so happy... After 8hours of working on this PC...
I came up with a beautiful blog of mine..

I want to say to the designer of the template...
though I had some editing done on it...
It's a real big help to me..
Look!
I love my blog...

this is my third one.
the first two were disasters...
and I almost took aside the idea of making a better one.
but of course, giving up isn't on my little dictionary...
that's why i came up with this..

and plus, I was really inspired by
FrancisM's Blog (http://www.happybattle.multiply.com)
He said that it took him 10 years to have his own account
and to think that he's fighting a cancer that time,
He might had super effort and super time to get it done.
Condolences to his family.

So why would I give up having my own blog too?!

It took him 10years,
It took me 11.
hihi^_^
God is with him I know.

i thank myself too for not giving up...
now I'm happy having this.

oh by the way..
for reading
you rock!

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Law of Attraction; Is it true?!

2009-03-08T19:10:00.000+08:00

"the secret"

just recently, i mean last week, we watched this movie entitled "The Secret".
To make the 3 hours movie short...
It is all about the "law of attraction".
It means that what you think, you say, you want is thrown in the atmosphere
and if you think of it more...
it will happen.
confused?!

LAW OF ATTRACTION

if you want something & you think of it as your possession & you are sure that it will be yours,
it will be yours.
you want to have lots of money, think of it... you'll have it!
the researchers said that when you say or think something, you throw it outside thew universe and the universe will response according to what you say or think.
ofcourse with your actions that is according to what you want to happen.
amazing, ain't?

After the movie, we had this open forum inside the class whether we believe it or not.
And most of them said, they believe on it.
They cite some situations where they experience such.
Sam, one of my classmates shared this incident she engaged just a month ago.

She was with her boyfriend who's kept looking at his watch and looked uneasy.
Sam suspected that his boyfriend is hurrying for someone.
And that could be the ex-gf of her bf that was working on a shop near the place.
So when his bf finally bid goodbye to her, she asked her friends to accompany her to that shop.
As soon as she arrived with her friends on that shop, she affirmed her thought.
Her boyfriend was fetching his ex-gf on that shop.

Another story was shared by our teacher.
One night she was thinking what will she do if in the middle of the night, someone will knock on their door and tell them something happened to his father.
Few days later, while she was fast asleep, a group of teenagers knocked on their door in the wee hour of the night...
and what she thought, happened. (her father encountered an accident but not that serious. you bet! she was so relieved that his father wasn't seriously hurt)

These stories might really make you think if it is true. It could be just a mere co-incident, but how come that things happened exactly the way you thought it will happen?
A psychic ability, maybe.It's amazing to know that there are people who can predict things.
But is it helpful or a disaster?

Well, I don't experience serious incidents like what my classmates or my teacher had.
The only thing I remember was every time I think about a movie I watched before, a few days later, it will be featured on the cable TV. Or if I think about eating at french fries, my Mom will invite me to eat @ Mcdonalds. Or when i am out of money, my Mom will give me some. Maybe it's a proof to that Law of Attraction or maybe my mom noticed that i ma craving for Mcdonalds or maybe she observed that I don't keep my wallet as well as before (it means nothing precious inside. haha)

If this Law of attraction is true... then, we can have anything we want as long as we are affirmative that we can get it or have it. And if it's true, what about God? the One we believe who gives what we really NEED... what about the DESTINY? that says that if you're not meant to have it, you're not going to have it...
it's confusing right? but what is good about this law of attraction is that it teaches you to be a POSITIVE PERSON. It teaches you how to start the day having something on your mind that serves as an inspiration or a goal.

honestly, I practice this Law of Attraction in my life until now. I wake up, i pray, i thank God for giving me another day to live & kept thinking that everything on this day will be fine. I think of positive things & live life the way I want it. I don't frown 'much' and when I'm sad, I listem to music & reflect of what are the good effects of it to me. When I get mad, I just sleep... I remain quiet... i let it go. If it's bad, let it go. that's the key!

We have different perception on this "secret" that was revealed infront of us.

And I perceived this as a source of hope. It taught me to assume & look life the way I want it to be and believe that what I dream right now will come true as long as I don't give up to reach that goal/dream & do things that will lead me to it.

the only thought of this is that
what will happen to us is our choice & our will.
if we want to be successful, we must perform things that will pilot us to success.
we must think & hope & have fate that we will be successful.

"we are the captain of our soul".

you? do you believe the "secret"?

live life to the fullest!

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2009-03-08T17:56:00.000+08:00

ask why that's the title? it's because, i typed several suggestions but i deleted it over and over again.

so here it is... something i want to share with you pals ( feeling close.. hihi^_^)

summer is fast approaching na.. it means bye bye super school, hello super vacation! should i say "horray!"??? uhmm. never mind. i just dunno what to do with almost 2 months vacation. and another one is i dunno if I should shift to Journalism or stay with my BA English.

what makes it hard? well here:

shifting to journalism means changing school too! and it means going back to zero!
i accepted the candidacy for secretary in our department. Well, still have choices... If i didn't won, i'll go absolutely! but if i won, ggrr.. what will i do?! should i stay or go?
i really want to go for what i loved and that is journalism, but but but what about my BA English? i love it too. and plus;
if changing school means go back to zero, wasted lang pala yung 2 years ko in BA English? uhhmm..

see?! uhhmm.. confused.. really! but nothing can do. i still have 2 months to think... and i'll go for what my heart says for i believe (pageant buh 2?!) that whereever you go, as long as you walk into God's presence & you're heart says it, you'll be successful! oohha.. oohhaa.. hihi^_^

and btw, how do we choose our college degree?
be a part of my poll!

be happy and trust God....